Depression sucks

[sunshinefan]

I have been struggling for two year. In the last two years I have been hospitalized 5 times. I found that ECT/shock therapy, is the only thing that helps. So I started about a month ago feeling better and the depression was lifting. So I changed my ECT to every other week and it was going well, however this last week I felt the depression creeping in. It's really annoying me and I find that I don't want to do anything and just want to sleep. I hate it.

[worthytobeloved]

Hi darling. I'm so sorry to hear what you've been going through for the last two years (and I'm sure life hadn't been plain sailing before that). I think depression is the worst thing one can go through - how we manage to survive at all is unbelievable. I'm glad ECT has helped, and the fact that you felt a bit better after it is a positive sign. I'm on the highest dose of antidepressants, and I remember asking my doctor if I could increase the dose when the depression got worse. She told me that it takes time to lift - it's a slow, gradual process, and there will be times when you feel you're going backwards. Just remember how you felt the ECT was helping - you're on the way up! Hopefully your doctor can suggest other things to help as well. All the best. xxx

[sunshinefan in reply to worthytobeloved]

Thank you for your reply. I really appreciate it. I have a message into my doctor.

[aneenpt]

Have you tried taking an antidepressant? I have never tried EST. To me it seems very dangerous. I find antidepressants work great.

[Cookie2217]

My latest major depressive disorder episode lasted FOUR LONG YEARS....It brought me to my knees. Last year I lost my job then my place to live and now I live in my sister's basement. Hoping to be able to move on September 1, 2024, as my sister has been crossing a lot of boundaries lately. She came down to the basement and turn her light on her cell phone and had her son take pictures of stains on the carpet from our cat what is she going to do charge me for a new carpet? Before that she actually called her primary care physician looking for my husband check to see if he was really there that's way out of bounds. These are the last two incidents that have happened here. On Saturday I went to Yonkers to go see our other sister Kelly because she gave Maureen's son Robert a car. Well needless to say I caught Maureen talking shit about my husband in the bathroom with my other sister Kelly and she said that my husband makes chicken parm which is his contribution to society. I was so insulted but I stayed quiet but opened up the bathroom door and she turned white she knew she was cold busted. I went right up to her and said I'm sorry that your son doesn't like my husband's chicken parmesan I turned around wash my hands and left the bathroom. Obviously she has something against my husband which she shouldn't because he's been very kind to her he mows the lawn, Cooks dinner, cleans and even put my sister's siding back up for her on the side of her house. During the winter my husband did the snow blowing too. Her son Robert does nothing but sit in his room and play Xbox. When Maureen went shopping Paul and I would actually help her in with the packages and put them all away for her just to help her out because God forbid if her son Robert came out to help her he never does. The only thing he does is his own laundry but big deal. He does nothing else for his mother ever. I'm so sorry you've been suffering for two years straight are you on any medication besides the shock therapy. I just changed medications to Prozac and we can go and I feel good maybe you should try Prozac if you feel the depression is creeping back in you know what I mean. One of my friends Dody just got done with ECT therapy and she told me that she's back to being depressed again and it only worked for a little while so be careful with ECT therapy. I think medication is the way to go I wouldn't do ECT therapy cuz I don't want electrodes on my brain. I also wouldn't do ketamine because it's a straight drug that used to be named Special K that's actually used as a horse tranquilizer so you can forget that for me too. I was depressed for four long years since before covid until about 2 weeks ago. I'm so happy to be done with that I was sitting in the dark daily would tell my husband not to make any noise ever he couldn't turn lights on and do anything no TV no nothing all I wanted to do was be in the dark and it be silent so I could try to sleep my life away but I never went to sleep anyway I would just sit there with my eyes closed trying not to exist. That was the loneliest feeling I've ever felt in my life and my husband actually cried because he didn't know how to help me and I felt so bad for him because my depression had nothing to do with my love for him I was just in a deep dark depression that I couldn't dig myself out of but now I'm back and I refuse to go back to that deep dark place ever again. They say that one in four women go through a bout of depression at least once in their lifetime I've been through about three already with this last one lasting four years being the toughest and most unbearable in my entire lifetime so far. It even got so bad that I stopped caring about my self care I would look at a shower as a hard thing to do because I took it apart piece by piece I would have to change my clothes, then go and put my bathrobe on, then have to get out clothes that I was going to wear, then go upstairs, then turn the shower on, then wash my hair and body and then dry myself off and do my hair and make up after that it just seems like so much to do but it wasn't it was just the depression fooling my brain into thinking that it was too much for me to handle. I pray that your depression wasn't as bad as mine was it was simply debilitating. Wishing you peace and well-being.