Depression sucks...

[Photographyanimal]

Hello, I am new to this group. I’ve been having a tough time lately. I’m not big on talking to anyone about my problems but it is getting worse each day. I want to get my depression under control and I read that talking to someone helps. It has taken control over my life to the point that I don’t want to do the things I once loved doing. And I’m afraid it is driving the people I love most away. I do not have any health insurance, so dealing out a therapist is out of the question for me. I am afraid that if I keep quiet for much longer, than there won’t be anything left of me. I don’t know how to cope with this at all. I have so many emotions going through me while at the same time I cannot fully explain what it is that I am feeling without the fear of making someone upset or angry. I just don’t know how to live with something like this.

[Hidden]

I feel like talking has helped me quite a bit. I would recommend looking for depression support groups in your area, such as those sponsored by nami. Maybe check with local psychiatrists and your county's mental health services to find things which are free.

My area used to have a couple nice groups, but not any longer, so that is what led me to seek out support online.

I see a lot of kindness and hope on this site. I don't know about any others, but I suggest you keep trying because depression thrives in isolation.

I wish you the best!

[Photographyanimal in reply to Hidden]

Before I found this site, I looked for support group where I am but did not find any that help with depression. From what I’ve seen so far on this site, it seems like a good place to start.

Thank you for your advice. I just hope to nip this in the butt before it gets out of my control.

[Sshaikh]

Hi,

I'm sorry to hear about everything you are going through. But i just want to tell you that this time is hopefully gonna change. It always does. I used to have panic attacks and depression. I went to therapist but that didnt help me. Then I started writing everyday and it actually worked for me. I would write about anything and whatever i felt i would express on a paper. Start writing it really helps and things eventually change. Just keep it in mind that your good days will come but you just have to be patient , have strength and courage.

I wish u best of luck and if you ever feel talking or alone, I'd love to help you out Stay strong

[Hidden in reply to Sshaikh]

I've had a similar reaction to writing (and sharing by posting "poems" to this site)

[Sshaikh in reply to Hidden]

Writing does help. It is like sharing ur heart out to someone but just to yourself. In my case i had no one around at that time so i decided to write even though i had never believed in it. And now its 6 months i guess life is back to normal. Now i occasionally write.

[Photographyanimal in reply to Sshaikh]

I will definitely try your suggestion. And I appreciate you wanting to help me. I need it more than I thought.

[Aardbark]

I'm in an anonymous support group also because 20 years ago, I used something besides therapy to calm my emotions. Today I had an issue on the depression side of things and shared it there. It was well received. I share this only if you can apply it to some group of people that may be able to listen to you. Also, I have three brothers. Two would let me talk, and I would be able to hear myself, which is key for me. The third wouldn't shut up because he likes his own voice to much. Again, I only hope you can apply that to your life.