Confused whether I'm alive or dead!

[Humann]

It's kinda hard to explain what I feel most days and how I react. I forget that I'm alive and it seems like my life has ended quite a long time back. Everything disappears sometimes and I get anxious about the surroundings as nothing seems real. I just loose myself so much that I forget who I am. I have to pretend so much that I'm totally fine in front of other people that sometimes I just feel like everything is fake on earth. I feel tired of everything. I go numb sometimes, sometimes too angry for no reason and sometimes too sad that I cry for hours. Life has become so damn hard that I feel like I'm a total failure. And worst thing is that I cannot say what I go through everyday to someone. People will consider me a mental person and put me in the hospital. So I suffer all alone, hurting myself everyday

[Agora1]

Dear Humann (love your user name)

You are very much alive but existing with overwhelming fears that

may confuse you as to who you are and where you are going.

This community is a place where we can help each other through our

own experiences with these feelings. You are not alone but in a bubble

of thoughts controlling your life. We can help you break out of that fear,

one step at a time. Medication, Therapy and Support and Care can help

you find your way home. Welcome to a safe place to come xx