TW: suicidal thoughts, SH

[daas]

What's the point in being alive if I can't offer anything to the world? I am not yet to the point where I am actively seeking suicide, but I am wondering what my purpose is and why I am alive. I have no idea at this point but am wondering how to figure it out. I am still SHing at least every other day.

[bluesky85]

you are worthy in this world daas.

[cashew78]

this hits home, and it's not an easy thing to navigate. I don't SH anymore, and I've tried to find/make meaning in my life by keeping a pet. My cat forces me to occupy my time and thoughts with the necessities of everyday; ie- clean the litter box, get clean water in the bowl. Doing something to engage my mind helps get me moving so I don't feel stuck in one place to ruminate. I think my point is that it's easier to notice and figure out when you're doing something else, then in those times you feel low you still have little responsibilities to keep you moving when you don't want to. My payoff is when my cat snuggles up to me, or otherwise gives me the slow blink of happiness. Good luck.

[Picoultlove in reply to cashew78]

Oh those cats arent they great companions?….. do noy constantly need your attention but are hsppy to give you some lovin now and than

Ues the sense of living escapes me on a regular basis but i push myself to physically do some stuff like biking hiking gardening cleaning( spring is here) this in itself gets me outbof my head tires me out so i can enjoy just resting and reading a bit

Oops dinner time….. hang inthere tomorrow is another day

[Hidden]

I feel the exact same way. No one understands.

[Teaching]

Your loved ones wants you to be alive. You are actually offering more than you can imagine. Being here and sharing your experience, thoughts and journey is enough sacrifice. Sending you lots of love and hugs.

[catsrock]

I totally get feeling like this and have been there many times. I hope you find some relief soon. Tapping meditations and inner child work have been the things that have helped me the most, just my 2 cents.

[raisin44]

I believe we all have a purpose here,I don’t know what it is. But I know what you are going through. I started have those thoughts in October last year. I have had major depression all of my life. I even tried to kill myself in December last year. I have admitted myself into 2 psych wards. Having those thoughts is very sad and depressing. Life is very hard to deal with for me. I hope you find what you are looking for. Depression is so scary and unfair. Good luck to you.