Suicidal thoughts

[Murielle21]

Hello everyone, l am a senior in deep depression. I have a lot of problems and my brain is frozen. I have activity on my bank account not mine. I have a new card and got message today about fraud. This isn’t the worst of my problems. My thinking s so bleak and except for my dog l am alone. I have no energy to do anything and my head feels like it’s floating somewhere else. I have spoken to the Samaritans (uk) twice but am still feeling like hanging myself. I just want to reach out for some comfort and advice please. I am afraid to go outside and feel very weak from this brain of mine.

[EDVARD12]

You are not alone I am here for you. You have someone to talk to and some one that is listening to you. Thank you for your message you have nothing to fear. There is always someone there for you if not physically then spiritually all you have to do is call out and it doesn't have to be out loud. I hope it's okay that I'm here praying for you in Orlando, FL across the pond from you 😉.

[Murielle21 in reply to EDVARD12]

Hello Edvard12, Thank you for your very kind message. I hope that you are doing okay. Best wishes.x

[EDVARD12 in reply to Murielle21]

Thank you for your thoughtful response Murielle21 I'm right there with you as far as your battle with depression I also have battled depression since I was 17 I'm 46 now. I do know how you feel and one thing that has helped me over the years over and over is practice of prayer. I'm just letting you know what helps me and absolutely works so please God Bless you Murielle21. Also my mother is same age as you she is in the hospital with a hip replacement surgery right now.

[Shnookie]

Hi Murielle. This is Shnookie from USA. The fact that U have reached out to this website shows that U have a desire to live. The people on this website R very supportive and nonjudgmental. Have U gone to see a doctor ? about your health issues ? R U seeing a therapist and receiving any meds. I’m here 4 U. There is an expression to save a life is to save the world. I understand your concern about going out. In the U.K. R there any social services where someone can come to your house to visit U. Also is there a senior center near U where U can socialize with other people. I’m here 4 U. U can privately message me. Hugs 🤗 S

[Murielle21 in reply to Shnookie]

Hello Shnookie, thank you. There aren’t any centres for elderly people at least not where l live. I think that I have had my life and most of it plagued by deep depression. I am afraid of another failed suicide attempt but honestly my life is not good at all and l am incredibly lonely. I have been under a mental health team for years. Thank you very much for your reply. I just hope that you are feeling a little better now. Thank you so much for your reply.x

[Shnookie in reply to Murielle21]

Hi Murielle it’s Shnookie. So sorry 😐 about feeling lonely. Hopefully U will get involved with our group. Do U have a computer ? If so, there R activities that might be of interest to U. If U like, UCan personally message me. I’m here for U. Hugs 🤗 S

[kenster1]

hi sorry to hear about your problems make sure you go to the bank in person or make sure your phoning the right number as these are actually tactics from fraudsters.glad you have your beloved dog my dog has been getting me through for years.good you spoke with the Samaritans hopefully it helped a little as well as being here.

[Lizzo30]

Hi Murielle you should go to your bank - have some breakfast look your best and go to your bank you have all of us supporting you , you will feel better for it rather than staying at home worrying

[secrets22]

i can associate with all you say,but like you i have dogs,and dogs are the most wonderful of friends so please think what would happen to your dog if you were not here,dogs love us so much and they depend on us,and i know without my dogs i would not be here,they lift me when i am down ,and they make me smile every day.Please hang in there and know that better days will come,but that also needs your commitment to keep on keeping on.x

[Murielle21 in reply to secrets22]

Hello Secrets22, thank you so much for your message. I’m glad you have got some company with your dogs. Sometimes though, in the depths of despair l get this sudden urge to just do it! I’m not a young person any longer anyway.In UK our resources are very stretched at the moment so it takes longer to get through to the Samaritans helpline. I don’t know what’s going on in your life right now but l hope it’s all good. Thank you once again.x

[Arymretep]

Hi murielle, so sorry to hear you are so down, have you been to your Dr , maybe you need a meds update, we are all here for you 👍

[Hidden in reply to Arymretep]

Hi murielle and arymretrep yes sometimes we need to resort to doctors but I don't recommend pills only as last resort but sometimes the brain chemicals need balancing, if it's your life circumstances and loneliness that's the main cause I recommend you go to doctors and or try get the number for councelling cognitive behaviour therapy and this will help change your mind set,and try seek some kind of company places you can meet people you will be finding even that motivation difficult even tho loneky,I had a bad time last year when I thought I'd lost my home due to various reasons I won't go into, and was very low I found it helpful talking on here and also advicing other people can help as it's easy to understand when your actually going through something I have swimming helps me and sunlight you may have bit of seasonal associated disorder adding to your other issues,you can get a sad light hope things improve sending a hug 🤗💐xx

[samack]

MurielleI too relate to your feelings. Sometimes all we see is deep darkness without a pinhole of light. Do the Samaritans know how down you really are? It helps to admit where we are just like you're doing here. I cant give great advice because I'm paralyzed with pain too. However meds to me are a must, as I'm starting to get a small lift and pray it continues. Then I can face getting on with my life, albeit slowly. Know you have companions in this rough time. Best to you.

[Murielle21 in reply to samack]

Thank you. I wish l could find a glimmer of hope. Bless you and l hope your meds work well for you.x

[samack]

see my note to Murielle and know I am also thinking of you.

[Starrlight]

Please don’t do anything to hurt yourself. You are a beautiful soul. I know it’s hard but please stay. There is always some light some hope something waiting around the corner for us.

[Murielle21 in reply to Starrlight]

I don’t see that. I am alone and old and my deep depression is getting worse not better. Thank you so much for your kind words. I hope that you are feeling good. 💙

[Starrlight in reply to Murielle21]

I hear you. I still think you are beautiful and that you have more hope left in life somewhere waiting to show itself to you. But I hear you that you are in deep depression and are feeling alone. You can personal message me any time. I will be here for you. You are not alone.

[Murielle21 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you so much!x

[Starrlight in reply to Murielle21]

No problem 😌 let’s keep in touch. ❤️ ((((((((Hug)))))))

[Empowered8048]

I’ve been there a few times. Feeling as you describe. I struggle too with not having friends or much support. I try to tell myself “this is a temporary depression, I will come out of this”. Exercise, even though we depressed that sounds impossible, will help you boost your mood along with depression medication. I simple walk first thing in the morning. Depression expert advice… do not allow yourself to sleep all day or get off a schedule. That will increase your depression so rapidly and becomes difficult to quit doing.