Generalized anxiety depression

[goodhabbits]

I am diagnosed with GAD, its not that I am having this everyday; if somethings triggered me then its like a rocket and suddenly it show up. The worst part is that I feel so lonely, cannot breath, cant control my tears and even my anger. What I did normally on my case if this things happened, I used to leave the house because I had this very blunt tongue and to avoid more troubles. Lately I've been into this situation again and my daughter triggered me this time. We had fire experience before because of the stove that she forgot to switch off and it cause some damage in our house. She did it again, thanks God nothing happened. But it triggers my GAD again to show up. It is my 3 days now and all I do is to stay in bed, cry and doing nothing. I feel so down, worthless and feeling so unhappy about life. Feeling so frustrated about my daughter because all I think is I am so useless and cannot handle her. Your thoughts are very welcome and helpful. Many thanks in advance.

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. Maybe being here with others who understand will help you to take the first step towards getting out of bed. Just take it one step at a time as you are ready. We are here to support you.

[goodhabbits in reply to gajh]

Honestly I don't know where to start. That is why I am here because I am looking forward to read what other people do coping there own struggles.

[gajh in reply to goodhabbits]

For me it took literally taking one baby step at a time. Not expecting myself to do everything all at once. Just do what I could at the time. I still use this strategy and it is very effective for me. So if you are just staying in bed all day doing nothing, the first step might be just getting out of bed and laying on the couch instead of expecting yourself to complete some activity. You know what I mean?

[goodhabbits in reply to gajh]

I really appreciate this message from you Gajh. I know now where the triggers come from. I love to see the house in a tidy situation. My 15 year old daughter simply cant understand that cleanliness is very important for me. I used to tell her that make it as a habbit to put things in place after using it. But still she's not getting it. Now I am totally frustrated and again my anxiety attacks me.

It started when my father past away. 3 years ago already. I couldn't accept the fact that he is gone. The feeling of loneliness, drives me crazy. I am so close with my father.

Anything that makes me sad, it always triggers me.

[gajh in reply to goodhabbits]

Have you tried any kind of positive reinforcement or rewards when your daughter does put things in place after using? To try to encourage her to do it. Her causing the fire is awful. You said you used to tell her. Have you tried talking to her recently even explain how it causes your anxiety attacks? I wish she could work with you and be supportive. I am so, so sorry for the loss of your Father. Do you have any support people in your life? Maybe connecting with people here will make you feel less lonely? I have made some really good friends here. I don't have any friends in real life so it has made a huge difference in my life.