I visited family for turkey yesterday, it was ok but I was dealing with anxiety the entire time. Today I am back to being alone, if I am not at work or at an occasional family event I am alone, which is probably 70% of my life. my anxiety makes going out difficult to do, even makes reaching out to friends and family nigh impossible. I just wish I wasn't so alone. I don't know what to do about it. I am 36 years old and this has been the state of my life for 20 years now.