Need break up support

[Against_the_current]

That dutch guy, my first relationship, a peep that i was trusting to support me through my family's bullshit, the person i travelled to while i was still injured, the person who kissed me, the person who called me future wife and talked about forever, said he's not happy in the relationship and probably wants to end it. Said that we should talk. I'm in my accommodation, reversed day and night, sleeping all day, awake at night. I can't get food. Even if I wasn't broken, my leg isn't okay and everything is closed. I feel nauseous. I feel like I won't make it through the night, i will be awake probably but nothing to eat. Thinking about going back home but mom might force me to eat and trigger me and he won't be there. And even my sister and my last two friends are in stable relationships and talk about that. My little sister. And my friends who have more serious diagnosises. Every notification scares me, i feel like it's him, texting to make it official. I need support. I need love. But ik it really sucks to talk to someone new about your ex. I don't even know whether we're breaking up or im making compromises to keep a dead relationship. Idk whether to text him, i miss him but im scared he will use the opportunity to break up with me.

[CLB1125]

I’m sorry you are so torn. Whether you text him or not if he plans on breaking up with you, he will. If texting him will give you peace, then go ahead. At least you will not have to worry and wonder what’s going on. I understand how you feel about everyone around you being in a relationship. But everyone is an individual and what is right for them may not be right for you at this time. There’s nothing wrong with that.

Do you think you should see your doctor about your leg again? It has been a while now since you injured it. Why do you have your days and nights backwards? Can you have food delivered to your accommodation? Maybe you could look into getting some protein bars or supplement drinks so you have something with you. Even if you don’t feel like eating a meal you can try something light.

[Craigliving4Jane in reply to CLB1125]

If it helps I second these thoughts Current

[Against_the_current in reply to Craigliving4Jane]

Thank you guys

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I have no advice to give better than what you have already received, but I offer support and caring.

[Against_the_current in reply to CLB1125]

Thanks. I actually depend on delivery a lot. I have just a bedroom, distress, meds and i sleep messed up and everything is closed. Docs won't give me much attention, it just hurts. And i don't want to talk to him. He can break up with me if i talk. I want to procastinate and avoid him. I feel like my flesh is torn. Every part of me that he touched is torn from my body

[CLB1125]

Breaking up with someone is never easy but sometimes it’s inevitable. We tend to have it in our minds what a relationship will be. But in reality it isn’t always as we imagined it to be and become disillusioned with the relationship. It’s no one’s fault it’s just two people with different personalities that don’t fit together. Take time for yourself and remember the fun time you had.

Could it be that you need to exercise your leg more to build up the strength again? Not strenuously but maybe some stretching or taking a short walk a couple times a day.

[bethelbee]

Might be better to communicate with him and find out what's going on. And, as much as it may hurt, have closure if that is what he intends. Is this someone you see spending your life with, someone that will support you and meet your needs, do you share like interests? May not be the person for you; only you can answer that. But if he wants to break up it's better to do it sooner and move on with your life.