I can't take it anymore

[dbwoy]

I don't know what to do. I hurt so bad. I have no one. I feel like no one wants me around. no one cares. I just want my life to be over because I feel like nothing is going to get any better. the good news is that no one will miss me when I'm gone.

[Rpan]

I’m sorry your feeling this way. I’m here if you need to chat...

[dbwoy in reply to Rpan]

I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I don't understand what I did to deserve this life. I don't understand why no one wants me in their life.

[Rpan]

I hear you, I get it.. is it possible that you can cultivate the life you want and dream of.

[dbwoy in reply to Rpan]

I don't think I will ever have the life I want. I used to have hope that I could have what I want, but that hope has disappeared. I feel like I've tried everything I can but nothing seems to help.

[Rpan]

For sure, being hopeless sucks. It really is hard trying to find what works or helps when we feel so down. Sometimes I just have to trust that journey will lead me back to hope. It’s very hard to embrace these feelings and get comfortable with them. It’s totally normal to feel like this. I call it the human condition. We all fall getting back up is the key.

[dbwoy in reply to Rpan]

I don't think I will ever be able to get back up.

[Hidden]

Just like me..I only have hope by my side, and that's starting to fade aswell..I feel your like this coz of others..not having anyone.. well either do i, so you know what I thought?..Its just me now..A blank canvas..literally I'm a blank canvas..so, now I'm starting to paint this blank canvas myself..I chose the colors, I choose the shades..What have you got to lose when there's nothing to lose?..The canvas is your life..blank..New beginning, start painting..

[Hidden]

I've been there. One thing that helped me out was finding a good person to talk to about it. Yo think that they won't listen, but if you have a close friend you should talk to them about it. Even if they don't know what to say or do, they will listen and have positive things to say.

[Clarebear86]

I am sure that is not true. But I understand how you think that will be the case. I’ve been there and it’s hard. But you are here for a reason, you deserve to be here

[Ames09]

I feel so alone also. I have people around me but no one can understand and the people I try to make understand get tired of hearing me.

[dbwoy]

even here I feel like people don't understand. I have no one. no distant friends, no close friends, no one. I have extreme social anxiety and its very hard to be around most people so its very hard to meet new people. and even when I try, no one is ever interested in me. how long do I have to be alone? its been so long since I've felt like I've had someone that cares enough about me to make an effort at being a true friend. at this point I don't feel like I will ever have someone like that in my life again and it really hurts. I truly don't know how much longer I can live like this. I contemplate suicide almost every day and one of these days I will really act on it because I have no one to stop me.

[Madison10 in reply to dbwoy]

Hey

I just saw your post. It sounds like you’re having a bad time . Everyone has something their struggling with. I have depression and anxiety . I believe you meet people all the time. Some stay in your life a long time others don’t. Do you have a doctor or medicine. There is a lot of people on here who will try to help. I am a good listener if you want to chat. Tomorrow will be a better day

[dbwoy in reply to Madison10]

that's just it, I don't think tomorrow will be any better. or the day after that. or the day after that. there's no reason for me to think anything is ever going to get better.

[Madison10 in reply to dbwoy]

Thank you for replying. I can’t look ahead and when someone says what their going to do next year or weak, it drives me crazy. I attempt to stay in the present but it’s hard. Have you tried medication? Would you be interested in it. Do you have a pet? I have two dogs they are my best friends. Do you have extra time on your hands. My mind runs away .

[dbwoy in reply to Madison10]

I also have 2 dogs, but I lost my other dog about a year ago and he was my best friend. the 2 I have now just don't compare. I love them, but they don't provide the same support my bwoy did. I have also tried medication. almost anything you can think of, I've tried it. I go to therapy every week, but it doesn't help as much as I want it to. I really don't know what else I can do to make things better.

[ShellW18]

I am sad to hear you feel like this. When your in in this situation it's hard to see anything good. I think what ellinaki said is a nice way to try and look at things. You are a blank slate, work on yourself. Do things that will make you a better person. Try new things. Do things that you used to always wanted to do. Be your own saviour (sounds cliche I know). Focus on yourself and then before you know it people will come in your life. I hope you begin to feel better soon.

[Ames09]

What if i you don’t ever feel better ? And have no one come in your life ?

[Hidden]

I'm very late, and I'm just so sorry you feel like that. Nobody should ever feel alone. Have you tried medication?