More hopeful session with therapist

[WaterMyMind]

I just had a really good session with my therapist that has proven that I have grown!

I have been going through a major episode this past week and it has been really exhausting, disappointing and quite honestly scary. I was able to work with my family to reimburse seeing the cost of my therapist that is no longer covered by new insurance. I was able to catch them back up and through the process it made me realize how much I've grown.

I now acknowledge that my ability to articulate what I am feeling and to ask specifically for things has gotten very well developed. For my age (22), I feel that a strength I have developed is to be able to explain things to others in a way that gives them a very clear idea of what I am going through and what I need. Having gotten to this point from being an extremely depressed middle schooler who didn't even know that I had issues and thought that the world was an extremely cold, dark place and everyone else had the magical power to deal with it is just satisfying.

I believe that I can do well with treatment because I know now more specifically what I want. I don't want to just simply survive. I don't want to just keep having crises and hurdles that I overcome, overcome them and then go back to just feeling burnt out and doing nothing. I want to live. I want to truly thrive. I want to become the type of person that can deal with the things I deal with much better, and to shrink my episodes in scale, severity and frequency. I want better hurdling shoes.

[gajh]

Wow this is amazing. You are doing so well. I hope you feel really good about yourself for all that you have achieved. It is inspiring.

[WaterMyMind in reply to gajh]

Thank you so much!!!

[optimismrus in reply to WaterMyMind]

What a wonderful outpouring of love for yourself and your own place in the future. Reading your post has reminded me of similar feelings when I began therapy a million years ago. I am still so grateful that I did the work and the rewards have made my life so much better. There will be times when you feel lost again...but you will recognize them faster and have tools to avoid a crisis. Be patient with yourself and others and keep up the good work! 🥰