trying not to live in fear

[Daisy425]

hi. I’ve been taking a break due to the passing of my friend. I feel like I am slowly healing. Some days are easier than others. Tomorrow I am going with my friends to a house we rented near the casino. Our plan is to hang out before getting dinner and going to one of the night clubs. I planned this because I value seeing all my friends from college. This is the one time a year everyone is home. But drinking makes me anxious. I know I don’t have to drink to have fun. I get worried that I’ll throw up or my friends will. I’m also scared bc I don’t want to contract COVID. I haven’t had it since July 2022 (knock on wood). Considering I lost my friend I’m trying not to live in fear because life is so precious and short. I am a teacher and I am around many people on a daily basis. I don’t think that’s much different than being around people at the casino.

[sabres4love]

I know it isn't easy, but try to relax and have a good time. You do see a lot of people on a daily basis and it is similar. If you don't want to drink, then don't. Can still have a good time. Do whatever makes you comfortable.

[Daisy425 in reply to sabres4love]

Thank you! I’m planning on not drinking

[Artistfriend]

Sorry to hear about your friend. It sounds like youre pushing forward as usual and challenging your anxious thoughts, good for you. Just getting together with friends is a win regardless of what you choose to do or not. Im supposed to have dinner tomorrow with some family members, im a little anxious but i know theres no way around it, ill be glad i went after its over

[Daisy425 in reply to Artistfriend]

I’m trying my best. I’m fearful I’ll get covid but I also know I can get covid anywhere. I found that isolating myself just made it harder for me to go and do thinks like I would’ve prior to covid. I’m trying to just live my life normally. But I’m scared

[Artistfriend]

Yep, its a fine line between confronting anxiety and being sensible at the same time. All you can is what you think is best, be careful but know that the feelings of anxiety are not dangerous and will always pass

[Daisy425 in reply to Artistfriend]

I’m so anxious tonight. We do this trip each year and I’m always anxious for it. My boyfriend always asks why I keep doing it if I’m going to feel like this. I’m trying so hard to face the anxiety head on

[Artistfriend]

Thats how it is, i understand, each year it comes up it can be difficult but it will get better over time, like you said, youre facing it head on, its what you know you need to do to not be so bothered by it next time. Accept it as best you can and know that youre fine regardless of how you feel at any given moment