Never have I felt so alone and worthless until....

[secrets22]

Yesterday i sat through a very long meeting which left me exhausted, dejected, sad and hopeless, and i was due to go to friends for lunch, but I was running so late i gave up on the idea, mainly because I really didn't wish to go as i knew i would not be good company, especially as i have had several weeks of feeling hopelessly low, to the point of having no wish to be here, I felt like giving up on everything.

I changed into my working clothes, and made a coffee, but i must admit i was on the point of pouring myself a drink ,but i didn't, and then the doorbell went, and standing there were two friends who were also going to lunch, and they insisted I go with them, and they would bring me home, and so i quickly changed and off we went out the door.

When we arrived at the friends house, all the other people were sat at the table waiting and not one person complained or said a word, they were wonderfully kind, and there were 12 of us. We had a wonderful lunch and lovely conversations, and it restored my faith in humanity, and i felt so less alone.

It proved that there still are some good people around.

[hypercat54]

Well done. You are clearly blessed with some very good friends which is fantastic. And well deserved.

[secrets22 in reply to hypercat54]

thankyou, it means a lot.

[LadyZen]

What a happy ending. I was expecting the worst. I'm glad it turned out well and brought some hope in your day. It's so fortunate you have people around you.

[secrets22 in reply to LadyZen]

Thankyou, it did turn out well.

[secrets22]

Thankyou Mandy...much love.xx

[Turnipgirl]

I'm glad to hear you ended up having a nice time!

Today it's an interview at 3 30pm in the city centre so we have decided to take advantage and turn it into a day out!

How are the dogs and are they looking forward to their Christmas presents as Baby is!

Thankfully this is my last booked appointment until after Christmas at the earliest!

I have been feeling put out over being made to wait until 3.30pm but decided to take advantage and fill up the time with enjoyable things and also the washing got done early and is out to dry.

[secrets22 in reply to Turnipgirl]

I hope the interview goes well, its always a nail biting time. My Yonnie and Diva are good ,and i dont buy them presents because their Christmas is everyday, although i might relent if i see a squeaky toy. ...i hope Baby enjoys the day.

I hand it to you for getting the washing done and out to dry...good on you.

[Turnipgirl in reply to secrets22]

Interviews can be very stressful can't they?

Took advantage of the free time and had a lovely walk in the fresh air around Bute Park and the Taff Trail which we haven't done for a long long time and I feel lots better after doing that and we have just sat down for a late lunch and then to the interview at 3.30pm.

[mizzou7016]

And even though you're going through a rough spot.... you are one of those good people

[secrets22 in reply to mizzou7016]

I try to be.

[secrets22]

Yes it does help enormously and thankyou.

[Arymretep]

Yes , we did a big shop today and it was so busy , we don’t have to go out again now before Xmas thankfully as it will only be worse, it’s mad, most of the shops will be open on Tuesday anyway ! How on Earth do you buy for kids these days, they seem to have everything, I’ve given up and give them all money now xx

[Arymretep]

ooh that’s a good idea, are they going it in all Morrisons I wonder . I know I can’t cope with any extra excitement now lol , have a quiet night now xx

[Midori]

Well done for making yourself go, and well done to your friends for thinking of you.

Cheers, Midori

[car67]

Hi

It’s really easy to get into that cycle of feeling low and everything being on top of you, and then not wanting to do anything , I’ve def been in that situation . You did so well to go out and have a lovely time , sounds like you have some amazing friends

[Florida1959]

Absolutely, we gotta trust! xxxx

[Teaching]

There are good people out there. Of late, I've been receiving a lot of favors from people around me. It doesn't matter how little, it goes a long way to prove that you are loved. I'm glad you enjoyed your outing.

[Hidden]

How awesome to have friends and co-workers care so much for you. It sounds like a God thing. So glad it was a good experience. Just love it for you!

[secrets22 in reply to Hidden]

thankyou for your kind words.

[SportsGuy17]

thank you for sharing your story. I know it can be tough to do things when you’re feeling down. I try to tell myself these feelings won’t last forever and tomorrow is a new day. I’m glad you went with your friends and you are thankful for that experience. I often feel similarly and after I make myself do something, it helps me feel grateful and in turn makes things a little easier to handle. I hope you continue to find the small pleasures and know that this community is here for you if you need to talk.

[secrets22 in reply to SportsGuy17]

thankyou so much for such a nice comment.

[Luv-Tex]

Good for you, it’s not just that there are good people, that was an overall good moment in life. Just a reminder that there will be more good moments.

[TailWags]

So glad you had that enjoyable experience. I have been in a funk for the last few weeks and it has been really hard for me to accomplish anything, especially work. My sister had just texted me about 10 minutes before i saw your post to meet her for lunch. I declined. After reading your post, maybe i should reconsider.

[secrets22 in reply to TailWags]

It is such a struggle to get out there, and so easy to not going anywhere, but it leads to so much solitude.

[TailWags in reply to secrets22]

Sometimes i just dont want to be around other people. Sometimes i really need to be around people

[Cb1963]

I'm so pleased your day turned out to be an upbeat moment for you, especially when I started to read the first bit of your post, these are the unexpected moments that give us the boost we need, and especially when you were perhaps feeling down already. It's just the kindness of others gives us the reminders to think we are not alone, and people are thinking about you, I'm so glad you went and enjoyed the day, good will to all mankind, and tis the season to be jolly, maybe that's going overboard, but you get the idea, wishing all the best at this time of year 😊