Hi. I'm brand new here and never done anything like this online chat before. I've recently started a new job (about 4 months ago) with a really great company. Since completing the training I've been experiencing more and more anxiety and it's gotten to the point where I've had one public meltdown at work and several before where I have become so overwhelmed I feel sick, dizzy and hyperventilating and end up calling in sick. To say things have been like a "roller coaster" is an understatement. To give anyone willing to read a peak of the situation, here is some background. When I graduated college I had high hopes and big dreams that were absolutely shattered in a few short months. I was working a part time job that paid minimum wage and a boss who was legitimately mentally abusive and didn't get any calls back from jobs I applied for. I was trying for the American Dream and trying to start a company with my brand new husband, it was tough and stressful and there were other things going on but we were optimistic. That was blown out of the water in one day that I was told would never come. My husband of 3 months was court martialed, dishonorably discharged and sentenced to several years in prison. We lost everything (except true family and friends). That was the start to a lot of misery and pain. Very few people know this outside of family, close friends and those involved in the trial. I moved every 2-3 months for cheap places to live or friends/family extending a helping hand and moved either until another job opened up or I felt I overstayed my welcome. My husband served almost his full sentence and to this day we fight to have the charges dismissed and restoring his good name and reputation. We have fought tooth and nail to get ahead in life. We have made tremendous gains in that time, some of it unbelievable even to myself. While he was gone I wound up in a job that was absolutely aweful for nearly 4 years. I worked insane hours, it was more physically demanding at first and as I promoted it became mentally demanding and then both. I gained a ton of weight despite doing my best to be healthy by being active but where I failed was sleep, no social life, extreme stress and demanding work hours, severe financial strife... I could spend days going on about it this. Where I run in to my current problem is my husband and I have finally reached a good point where he's got a great job with a great company and we have a house we love... on and on. I finally felt he was stable enough I could leave my terrible job and try for other employment. After a brief stint of unemployment and getting much needed medical attention to get my health back under control I gained employment in a top notch company. They treat employees great and there's little to complain about. My job deals with talking to members all day and I received quite a lot of training. When I finally got on the phones and started dealing with members and the more I learned on the job the more and more anxiety I felt. Building and building to the point of over flow. It seems the more I learn about the job the more I feel panicked. The more people I talk to the more I panic. It is a call center and I can't say it's a lot of being yelled at and screamed at but I get panicked waiting for the bad call to finally come, or messing up. My manager keeps telling me it's okay to mess up, we'll coach you through it but I'm so terrified of that one thing that's an unforgivable screw up that I'll be fired. I tell myself to just do the best I can and one call at a time, one situation at a time but that becomes less and less comforting each day. I'm told this is normal with a new job but I find little comfort in that. I feel like a horrible person and a complete coward for calling off and leaving my amazing coworkers and manager just hanging and taking on my workload. I can't figure out why after ALL the crap I've been through, this great opportunity is causing me to be so terrified. Does anyone have any advice on techniques that work for them? I'm trying to stay away from prescriptions, I drink very little and exercise frequently but it doesn't seem to help much once my workout is over.