You felt alone, and you felt it even more.

[CactusDan]

Since that day came, i only had my family and 2 friends to talk about what i feel. Most of the time, i can’t say it to my family coz they worry a lot. So i depend on my 2 friends. But now, seems like they also got tired of me like my bf did that’s why he wanted to broke up. My 2 friends seem to be not there anymore. I am texting them how i feel but i don’t get replies. Maybe i’ll stop from here then. I’ll just hold things up for myself.

[Chinnup]

People don't always want to hear how other people feel, they also want to talk about other things and enjoy being together. Maybe you need to enjoy time with your friends and come here or see a therapist to talk about your feelings.

[CactusDan in reply to Chinnup]

I’m afraid to go to a therapist.. and i think going to one isn’t enough. Coz appointments to them are only for like an hour in my country. I cannot have some time with my friends, most of them are working.

[Chinnup in reply to CactusDan]

You will be surprised at how much a therapist can help you an hour at a time after only a few visits if you are proactive and work with them. Your friends are not qualified to help and may feel pressured and out of their depth, a therapist will know what to do.

[CactusDan in reply to Chinnup]

I forgot to tell you, even if i wanted to. I am afraid that my parents can’t afford it.

[CactusDan in reply to Chinnup]

I don’t want to be a burden to them. Like i am killing the budget since then. And i don’t want to add more to it.

[AloneandScared in reply to CactusDan]

I wish I was in my home state and could see my therapist. Sessions are only an hour yeah, but once you find a good therapist you will look forward to that hour ALL WEEK LONG! You can tell your therapist things you may not want to tell anyone else. Therapists can suggest books to read, activities to try, and often times support groups.

You may not find the best therapist your first attempt, but you can usually tell if you mesh well with someone or not rather quickly. If you don’t feel that your perspective has changed or feel like you have better direction after a decent amount of time then move on. We don’t always like things the first time we try them but sometimes we learn to love them. Sometimes we dislike them forever, it all depends...

Good luck!

Edit: I am not sure where you live but sometimes therapists will work on a sliding scale. If you cannot find any help that you can afford I suggest support groups. Some religions have charitable people who will offer to help. I’m not sure how you feel about that, I am just hoping you can find the help you need that’s all sweetie.

[CactusDan in reply to AloneandScared]

I hope i can find someone who is willing to help me here in my country. Huhu. Thank you so much for your kindness.

[Chinnup]

Perhaps you could try exercise and going for long walks to lift your mood; also cut out caffeine.

[CactusDan in reply to Chinnup]

Okay i will. Thank you so much.