Morning anxiety

[Brightybec]

Hi,

New to this so please bear with. Always suffered with anxiety and panic disorder since being young. I seem to go through really acute phases and then can be fine for months and then something trigger me right back. Very annoying. Anyways, my dog passed away in August, she was a huge part of my life. Anxiety had started creeping back before this but it seems the dog passing just sent me way, way back. I seem to feel worse in the morning just after waking up. Sometimes can go bed feeling anxious too. I’m just finding it hard breaking this habit. Can anyone relate? Mornings I just feel terrible. I’ve felt terrible all day today yet yesterday, I did loads and actually fooled myself into thinking I was getting through this. I was doing so well from January until July this year. So disappointed. Currently in the nhs wait list for therapy, 6months wait :(.

thanks for reading

[IncognitoC]

sounds to me like you are still grieving over the sad loss of your beloved pet, as pets are a huge part of our lives and they are our family we grieve just like we would if it was a close relative. As you have suffered from anxiety and depression for many years your loss will be heightened.

I have spates of anxiety attacks sometimes in the morning as well as in the afternoon and evening. My night time anxiety is usually because I am worried how long it will take for me to get to sleep and then the morning anxiety is worrying about what my day has to offer.

[Brightybec in reply to IncognitoC]

She was a huge part of my life. When I didn’t leave the house much because my panic attacks were so bad she held my hand through that time. Walking side by side. She gave me confidence. I do miss her very much

[IncognitoC in reply to Brightybec]

I totally understand, when my boy passed away I was devastated and it took me ages to get over losing him (I dont actually think I am completely over him yet) Dogs are so loyal and loving, they know when you need them. I can only say that it will get easier.

Have you tried Talking Therapy via the NHS? You can download the silvercloud app.

[MadBunny]

6 months is a long time to wait. May I ask what therapy you have been referred for?

[Brightybec in reply to MadBunny]

CBT 1:1 therapy. I too was very shocked. Referred myself in the October then had two sit through two sessions explaining the nhs services which was pointless as I’ve used the service loads of times in the past then had a telephone assessment to be told it’s at least 6 months wait.

[MadBunny in reply to Brightybec]

🙄I'm sorry to hear it's talking so long . Seems to be the same in all areas.

[Dolphin14]

Welcome to the community.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your pet. This is a very a grieving process that is bound to upset your stability and cause anxiety

We are here for you

🐬

[Brightybec in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you. That means a lot. Really hard to work through. I have my husband and 5 year old little girl, just want to be my usual self for them both.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Brightybec]

Do what you can on your good days.

Be good to yourself, no pressure on the difficult days. Prioritize so you don't get too overwhelmed

[LadyZen]

Wow, 6 months wait. I'm glad you got on the wait list. In the meantime, it sounds like losing your pet has triggered you. Hang in there. Keep yourself busy, even though it's hard. Relax when you need to, cry when you need to.

[Hidden]

really sorry to hear about your dog, pets are apart of your family 😭 so yes you are grieving. When I’m having my bad days, at bed time I used to pop on my eye mask, ear plugs in and make myself as comfortable as possible …then meditate, concentrating on my breathing to drift off to sleep without the anxiety, a good nights sleep works wonders. If you wake up feeling anxious…ask yourself what’s making you feel like that, again calm your breathing - check in with yourself. Then you can start the day. Be kind to yourself. It’s easy to get overwhelmed in the morning thinking of everything you need to do especially this time of year. A few tasks a day can help ease that and if you need to rest then rest..we all need duvet days. Listen to your body as suffering with anxiety is exhausting. 6 months is a long time when you need some help now but hang in there, you will get through this 🙌 until then focus on what’s important like your family and the biggest one …self care❤️

[Bluegiraffe26]

I’m so sorry for the loss of your dog 🥹 dogs are a huge part of our lives! I can somewhat relate to your feelings..i recently just moved and am dealing with separation anxiety from my family and my family dogs. It is so hard without them. I’ve grown up with dogs my entire life. What you’re going through is 100% normal. You’re grieving. Be kind to yourself, and cry when you need too. My anxiety is also the worst in the morning and at night. During the day I get more positive and keep myself busy at work until I get home again and my stomach is in knots. Lean onto your family for support! You got this!!

[LittleShik]

Happy holidays Brightybec . I empathize with you. I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder six months ago. I too often have morning anxiety. In your post where you mention it's a hard habit to break... I want to share—now this is just my own belief—that anxiety isn't a habit we can break. Like intrusive thoughts, anxiety comes and goes, often when it wants. With the exception of things like Ativan (which I take, that works 3 out of 4 times), exercise, meditation (daily), connecting with those you love, etc. My hope is that you longer blame yourself. One more thought I have is, if you're open to it, check out Tara Brach. Amazing. Human. Being. tarabrach.com. Search her intro to meditation. Can be very beneficial. All the best to you. Happy New Year. Namaste, TS