Good morning Anxiety

[Dreamie]

Anxiety is the first to greet me nearly every morning. And it builds and builds. Getting up is excruciating. But it’s no better to stay in bed. So I head to the bathroom, grab a cup of coffee and go outside to smoke. I am in my head. Trapped. Heart pounding like a drum. Random thoughts swirling. These thoughts cause more fear and self-loathing. I have to remind myself to breath. I stumble back into the house with my cat and my dog underfoot waiting to be fed. Feeding them feels monumental. But alas I get to the couch and I start playing my word puzzle games and I begin to get better. Not great by any means. But well enough to get dressed and go to work. I hate this! I wish I could go back to a time in my life where I felt “normal”. It’s been years and years since then.

[Hidden]

Oh my..you just described me! I go to bed...sleep pretty much most nights, then wake up with this overwhelming anxiety. It’s awful. My thoughts and self loathing are also overwhelming, I have all to do to get showered and dressed for work. I used to be normal until I suffered a trauma 2 years ago. I don’t take medication...do you?

[Michdau1]

U just described me too. I fondly call it 'my fear/feeling of impending doom' 🙈🙈 it's blomin awful but u should be really proud of yourself for trying to push through it enough to function in work. If I didn't work, that would be it for me. It gives me something to get up for and focus on. I always worry about losing my job tho!!! Blomin anxiety eh XXX

[Hidden in reply to Michdau1]

Do you take meds?

[Dreamie in reply to Hidden]

I just take Lexapro. I got “addicted” I guess to Xanax and had to stop taking. And I am glad because getting off was HELL! It became where I needed it every day. I am doing better without it. Though it still sucks.

[Michdau1 in reply to Michdau1]

Ps.i take fluoxitine aka Prozac which doesn't agree with a lot of ppl I've spoken to but it has changed my life completely for the better. I'm on 40mg and it helps me with anxiety, OCD and depression. Just levels me out and makes me feel a bit more confident again xxx

[Michdau1 in reply to Michdau1]

I have tried other stuff e.g citalapram which did nothing at all for me. Other ppl I know swear by it tho so we are all different. Just have to find what works for u. May not even be meds 🤗

[Hidden in reply to Michdau1]

I have severe OCD. Nothing seems to help me. I am ready to throw in the towel.

[Michdau1 in reply to Hidden]

Please keep your head up high. You are not alone and things really can get better. Nothing lasts forever xxx

[Dreamie in reply to Michdau1]

So true! Work saves me. But I also worry about losing my job if I “get caught” being mentally ill. What I mean is I worry I might have a panic attack at work. Or be unable to come to work due to my condition. Or forget something very important because my brain isn’t right. I try very hard to seem like I’m normal. Ha ha! But, who really is? Thanks for the praise. Gotta keep swimming swimming swimming!!!