How do i deal with self harm issues?

[Usmc_Daughter357]

I'm Erin, I'm 39 years old i struggle with ADHD and PTSD and deppression, and sexual abuse trauma ,in my past, i never harmed my self growing up but there have been some changes in my life that have caused me to feel fustrated and take my anger out on my body instead of taking it out on outlets that won't lead to self harm or hurting my body i don't want to be put into mental hosptial and be without my pets i want to learn how to cope better I don't want my parents knowing that i've been hurting myself my counslor last session i told her about me hurting myself how can i cope with anger issues and put them into outlets that are postive and won't cause me to get fustrated and hurt my face and other places with my fists i don't want this to appear like i'm doing this for attenttion which i'm not i have no clue why or what causes me to act like this i'm not meds for deppression and mood stableizer lithuim i don't know it its meds causing me to do this i want answers i''m sad that i hurt my self because i'm fustrated and angery any advice

[BlueAgave]

Sounds like you're having a hard time and I'm sorry to hear this. All I can say is breathe deeply and try to remember what your therapist said about how to change your anger into something positive. One thing you could try is putting a rubber band on your wrist and snap it. At least that will keep you from hurting your face. You can get through this.

[Shnookie]

Please call 988 crisis hotline. They R very helpful and supportive

[designguy]

Sounds like with the physical and emotional trauma you have suffered that you would benefit from finding a therapist that specializes in treating trauma/c-ptsd. They will typically use emdr therapy as part of the therapy and it has been proven to help you process the difficult emotions and memories so you aren't triggered in the future.