what do i do

[xbleedingrosex]

In 5th grade i was diagnosed with depression i am also suicidal my dad put me in counseling for a few months but it didn't help at all. i started self harming my self that same year while i started counseling. my dad didnt know until this year i was self harming until i attempted to take my own life. my half sister saw knew what i was going to do and called the cops and thats when my dad found out. i want to stop hurting myself but every time i feel down and dont have motivation and just lose my mind i hurt myself. Ive asked for help but no one cares ive attempted 5 times and i want help and i want it to all be over with what do i do

[Alaska17]

Hi, I can see that your feelings are overwhelming, but it’s great that you recognize having all this emotions and issues and that you want to get help.

Maybe you should seek that help for yourself, search for a therapist that you feel comfortable with and that you think could be helpful, and then with that information reach out to your parents and discuss why do you need help and why do you need a new therapist

I hope this helps you and if you ever need someone that would listen to you, you could write me

[xbleedingrosex in reply to Alaska17]

thank you this helps

[PackerGirl]

How old are you?

[xbleedingrosex in reply to PackerGirl]

15 idk it put 16 on it

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Hi. I see that you're 16 and have another issue besides depression, is that right?

You say no one cares, but your half-sister must if she called for help for you. Your dad must too if he put you in counselling. I'm sorry it didn't help though; counselling doesn't help everyone. My point is that is sounds like you have people who care. There is always someone who cares, but I can definitely understand it being very easy to feel like people don't care when depressed.

In regards to making attempts on your life/self- harming: please, please, please get help for this!!! Talk to someone you trust about this!!! Self-harm comes about when we are in unbearable emotional pain and don't have the words to express it (or feel no one cares). This is where journaling can come in handy. What you write doesn't even have to make sense; the idea is to just get those thoughts out. One's thoughts don't make sense anyway. They all run together. Thoughts don't follow grammar rules. That's why it's called "train of thought".

I remember showing my therapist what I wrote and her asking me "am I supposed to be able to understand this?" She didn't say this to make me feel bad; she took my writing very seriously and just wanted to confirm whether she needed to understand it. Although my written thoughts made utterly no sense, do you think she gave up? No. She asked me questions and eventually got me to the point where I could be coherent.

The advice I got from my therapist for self-harming was to put a tight rubber band around my wrist and snap it every time I felt the need.

I hope this helps!

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I have been where you are !

Antidepressants helped saved the life?

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I happen to be 50 and in the past when I was younger I had some serious self harm tendencies. I've also had a couple of anxiety attacks where I crazily got some scissors and chopped off my long hair. It's just a good thing I didn't go as far as shaving my head!!! I'm not any therapist, but my humble opinion is that you've got to find some better ways to cope with stress and depression than all this self harm stuff. Doing things like writing out all your feelings, perhaps trying to do some kind of artwork to express yourself, trying meditation music and guided imagery that you can find on YouTube, exercise like running or dancing or kickboxing. Try some self soothing things like taking a long bath or shower. What I've learned too is to just be still and let those feelings pass, because eventually they will. It's not good to be walking around with scars on your arms that youre going to want to hide or anything like that. You ultimately are in control of yourself. I personally am really into music and I try to look for songs that are somewhat positive or uplifting that can be inspiring and I'd stay away from too much of the dark stuff like limit your exposure to Eminem!!! And you don't have to know all the bad stuff in the news either. I hope you try to work on this, I know you're hurting but you don't need to be hurting yourself. 💖