I just want it to go away. This curse has been following me around all my life. I see other people not being afraid all the time, being in a good mood, enjoying life. Why can’t I have this on a more consistent basis?
In a little less than three weeks, I have a meds check appointment with my doctor. I hope nothing really terrible happens between now and then. And I hope he can find something that works for me.
You got this! I also struggle as you do - watching seemingly everyone else around me (even my own family!) enjoying life and finding contentment where I feel on edge at best.
But just we just need to take each day as they come and have some faith that as long as we keep working on ourselves, that our time will come.
I think even people that appear like life is perfect have their own struggles. I know when people see me in full blown panic I rarely look like something is wrong. I’ve gotten really good at faking it and people don’t see the chaos in my mind and body. Unfortunately anxiety is never going to go away. It is a physiological response that is there to protect you. We have to make friends with anxiety and stop making it the enemy we wish away. Sure it feels horrible, I’m having a ramp up right now also. I feel horrendous but I am trying to accept how I feel, and thank my body for trying to protect me, even though I don’t need it right now. The secondary fear of the symptoms is what leads to the torture. If we can accept the initial fear wave as just a response of the nervous system and not to be feared it will pass quickly. Nothing terrible is going to happen. I’ve been to the very bottom of anxiety and panic. Rolling attacks day in and day out. I promise you, all that there is is more of the same. There is nothing over the ledge.
Totally agree. I’m 67 and have had panic disorder and anxiety since I’m 18… I learned to put my hands over my heart and tell my heart I’m ok.. there’s no danger, you no longer need to worry.. it really helps.
I love that. I’m gonna do that. Sometimes I challenge my heart when it beats fast. I’ll say “is that all you’ve got, go faster” lol your way seems much kinder. It really does help. We will never stop the adrenaline dump happening. But we can stop being afraid.
It was a video I watched on you tube a few months ago, with Mel Robbins, she suffers from anxiety issues. Try to find it, it really is helpful. I’ll try to find it too and let you know 😊
I feel your pain. I too have had anxiety and panic all my life but it is now well controlled. Can take multiple attempts to find a med that works for you - but you will.
You will get better - just don’t be hard on yourself while you do. Good luck
How to accept life is on the way up
Got up went back to bed. Up again finally ready to start Wednesday.
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