making it through

[Bookreader91]

I’ve been making myself go through the motions of everyday life. When I’ve done everything I have to for the day I retreat to my room and stay there. I have made my room nice and dark. I don’t have my own kids but I help my sister with her twins. Most days I’m in my room by about 4 and I’m up the next morning by 6:30. I don’t actually sleep much, I just read or lay there trying to sleep, but mostly reading. I have no one to go do anything with and I wouldn’t know what to do anyway.

[GhostRobin]

I know the feeling, too. I have been through the same for years at a time. It's hard to have motivation to go out and "try" when just thinking about getting out of bed is totally exhausting. With support I have been able to take some baby steps though, and things get easier. I hope the same can happen for you.

[litethatnevergoesout]

that’s exactly where I am at. I don’t like it at all.

[Mumbutterfly]

Books have always been my refuge, distraction, and comfort. Some think I don’t have a life but actually, I’ve lived thousands of lives through books. I’m mostly okay with that except for missing my adult children. They live hours away and my work schedule makes it hard to go see them. Even when I do go, I don’t have anything to talk about. That’s okay though because I’ve always enjoyed listening, especially to my kids.

My therapist has been trying to get me to get out more socially but it just hasn’t worked out so far. Again, because of my crazy work schedule. It’s impossible to plan anything ahead of time because I don’t know what my schedule will be from week to week, sometimes day to day.

[Trainchaser]

You have created a nice safe space for yourself cool. Love to read as well. Not unusual for me to be reading multiple books at same time. Hope your day was good. Oh how old are your sisters twins?

[Bookreader91 in reply to Trainchaser]

17

[Downinil]

It seems like your lifestyle is very similar to mine.

[Nothing_but_books]

Me too.