It's the sad truth.

[Shanm2]

The ones we love the most, gives us the most painful of lessons.

[Dolphin14]

I can relate to this.

I also think sometimes we set ourselves up by having an expectation of others.

I hope you are doing ok

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[Shanm2 in reply to Dolphin14]

Sorry you can relate, I agree with you on having set expectations of others. I guess in the long run it isnt healthy. I'm not sure if it comes from wanting certain needs to be met from people who aren't equipped to provide such things?

I am getting there slowly, and thats something. I hope you're doing well Dolphin14

[Dolphin14 in reply to Shanm2]

I've learned through my guided meditations that any expectations we have of others sort of set us up for failure. Meaning we know what we want and need from them but if they don't give this back to us then we are disappointed and hurt.

So yes I agree with you not everyone is equipped to give us what we need. So if we expect that it's not going to get us anywhere

It takes a long time to figure all these things out, process and then put a new plan into action.

We will just keep plugging along and learning

[Hidden]

It took me a minute or rather a ton of minutes, but being a Christian I've learned that God has needed to shape me to more of what he needs and to show me many things. Like how not to let my low self esteem continue to try to please others all the time, etc..

He has given me my senses and life back. I'm able to read books and write again in a meaningful way. After the culmination of years of extreme pain, that so many of us know all too well, I am free from 90% of my symptoms, I'm writing about my failures and successes, hoping to help others someday. Gotta be a reason im still here after finally telling all of those knucklehead family members my truth and naturally being rebuked by them, that 90 pills down throat didn't do the trick.

I'm healing and luckily I don't need their help or rather ignoring . For me had to be God intervening, cause my knucklehead family sure didn't help find the answers,

All along asking family to help find solutions. To have family meetings. To look at their own behavior. All have had extreme behavioral problems due to my either my sisters death, wife's abuse as a child or an environment that form a manipulator of another, Extremely complicated and hidden stuff to most, but oh so glaring to me.

IF ANYONE CAN RELATE SAY "I HEAR YOU BROTHER!!!"

Just trying to find a fricken solution. Geeez people!

Why these horrible lessons? Who knows, but one thing I'm absolutely and unequivocally holding onto is that if I can just hold on, I will rewarded with a new perfect body and all those lessons won't matter at my death.

Sure helps that I'm feeling so much better.

Keep searching

Keep battling

Don't let anyone get to you like i did (yes i know its hard and I failed. Not ever again!)

If you're a believer keep praying

If you're not. Why the heck not?

I'm pretty darn certain all this crap shaped me and saved me

Whataya got to lose?