My truth

[Survivor1687]

I have learned people are going to hurt you no matter where you go, and I must decide what's worth hurting and fighting for. I have been fighting my entire life trying to find my voice, trying to find where 'I fit in' and somewhere I feel heard and accepted. I'm the outcast. Everywhere. I am not like everyone or anyone else and I'm trying to embrace the FACT that this is OKAY! I don't want to be like ANYONE else. After years of trying to fit in with certain or different crowds & trying to fit the idea of what kind of person I needed to be in order to have friends or accepted, loved, cared for, heard. This is me. This is the real me! I'm not looking for approval anymore. I spent 35 years doing that. I'm looking for genuine, friendship, support, love and understanding. As badly as I need support right now and want friends and people who understand. I am me. If someone truly and genuinly cares and are in my life for the right reasons with good intentions then I shouldn't have these feelings of shame or feel unable to be myself without fearing for my life in order to feel accepted or to feel supported or have friendships. My intentions coming to this forum are to have support and give support. Being able to feel safe doing so make a huge difference. I'm here trying to do that coming from a place of love and understanding. I want peace, I would like to believe that is what most of the people here want also, along with support and good intentions. Today has been very hard. I am still thankful for this community, I am still grateful that I have another day to work on trying to be a better person. I'm trying my hardest not to fall apart and lose hope in something Ive been fighting for my whole life. Thank you for hearing me. For reading my words. I'm not giving up. 💜

[TeddyBear3]

The struggle does not get easier as you age. The key is finding coping techniques. I am twice your age. Keep pushing. I have depression, it does not have me.

[AnxiousSilver]

I care about you, and you know that I'm here.

My PM door is always open to you Survivor.

[Survivor1687 in reply to AnxiousSilver]

(((hugs))) 🥲🌹

[Dolphin14]

Through our life we are going to find people that don't fit into our healing process. I think we have to look for and hang on to the ones that do.

We don't need to stuff our emotions anymore.

Be the genuine you. Don't go backwards and change for others. Take your time you will find your way.

❤️🐬

[Survivor1687 in reply to Dolphin14]

⏳⌛😢

[Dolphin14 in reply to Survivor1687]

❤️❤️

[Adlon57]

I am an outsider, ALWAYS have been due to my health, cannot join things, cannot appreciate things or people, formed my own beliefs, technology is beyond me, push that, push this, all 'praise' to it, you must keep up with UPGRADEING, or ELSE! [so the normal generation ( surely they must be?) is swept away!] No individuality, big brother owns everybody, the younger generation rules, you must be camp, gay, a touch of coloured, this is the woman's era, bleh, bleh [look at a 'normal' days range of TV to prove this!] A countries culture/identity does not exist, no real respect for the older generation! Climate change is in reality caused by consumerism, people say one thing, high and mighty, in reality, themselves every time!

[Adlon57 in reply to Adlon57]

WELL have you looked at a 'normal' days range of TV am I right? And people ask me why am I so depressed? I rest my case!🔨

[Survivor1687 in reply to Adlon57]

I don't watch TV often. Hardly ever. I try to stay away from news and most social media also.

[Adlon57 in reply to Survivor1687]

Very, very wise👍