Realizing the truth

[Speedy33johnson]

I have so much I just recently found out about my past life as a child as which I have no memory of. My mom passed away 6 years ago in June and wished to be creammated which was done. As my oldest sister took the ashes which all 7 kids were suppose to have some decide between she kept them all. Now 6 years later I finally got that closure. But I was also told so much Info that is so hard to process. Was wondering if someone has the time to talk n help me through these shocking news I was informed about they are very intense and to me in heard of

[Agora1]

Speedy33johnson, we are not professionals but most of us have been through many difficult situations in our own lives and we support each other by listening to others. The forum is a safe place for you to come and express your thoughts but if you feel more comfortable in sharing this privately, I would be happy to hear from you. xx

[Speedy33johnson in reply to Agora1]

Thanks

[Speedy33johnson in reply to Speedy33johnson]

I’m so shocked. I was told through my child hood so many lies was neglected by both mom and suppose to be step father. Mom made a fabercated story that I was a rap baby and was sick my first year of life and all this crazy stuff that I barely made it. I just recently found out that wasn’t the case she was a party person n slept with the man she was with nephew and that is how I was conceived and to keep things quiet she made up a story n stuck with it her whole entire life

[Speedy33johnson]

I been told so many stories that she made up in her head and fabercated to make it seem as she was the victim when in reality she was the issue.

[Optimistic_22]

Don't let the past affect you. I understand our childhood is not always great. Just take comfort in the fact that you don't remember the bad stuff. People make mistakes your mother might not of been perfect but that is the past now and cannot be changed. You don't have to like what she did but by excepting you can move on. Excepting the fact that it happened and is the possible choose. If you are still uncertain you could always get a blood test with the nephew to confirm. But sometimes things are better left alone take comfort in knowing that you're alive .that you get to live another day that you can choose to be a better person. And not let your mother affect you emotionally. There's good people out there and I don't think there's necessarily bad people people are just tempted and they make awful choices. Just possibly feel compassion for her and think she probably did have issues but maybe she didn't have anybody to help her. You may never know all the answers buthave comfort in knowing that you're going to be better you're going to choose a different path.