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[PackerGirl]

I’m so sad, and so very much alone. It’s only been a couple weeks since I had to surrender and place my cherished dogs for adoption because I could no longer care for them in the manner they needed and deserved. Since then, one of them suddenly died in her sleep. They were truly my family and my most beloved souls on this earth. I feel empty, alone, devastated and like a horrendous human being. I feel like I failed the only two souls who truly loved me and I them. I just can’t shake it, and I can’t stop crying. They gave my life meaning and I feel like now, there is none.

[Starrlight]

I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s not your fault. Please be kind to yourself.

You can pm me any time you need someone to listen. I’m here for you. ❤️

[PackerGirl in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you, I appreciate it ❤️

[Starrlight in reply to PackerGirl]

Any time at all, I’m here. Blessings to you.

[jtk1701]

Love you, sending all my hugs 💜💜💜

[TailWags]

I am so sorry to hear of your situation. I too am an animal person and dogs are very special to me. I lost my dog about 5 years ago. It was sudden and a horrible situation. I too felt i had failed him. It took a lot of work, counciling temp med adjustment, MBSR class and of course time. I did finally accept the situation .

You may not have your own dogs, but are there dogs around you could visit? Could you get visitation to your dog that was adopted out? Kind of unusual but i have heard it done. Not sure where you are and how those things work there. The adoption organization may agree to be a go between with the new human for your dog. You are in a tough situation. Just trying to think of ways to make the best of it. Take care.

[Tara52]

That is a terrible loss. Let yourself grieve: cry, talk about it, write about it...get it out or it will eat you alive. Don't make things worse for yourself with blame & regrets. You are not a bad person, you did nothing wrong. Have compassion on yourself. Would you beat up another person who was grieving? Loss is something we all go thru but it is damn painful! This too shall pass if you don't run from the pain & feel it and let it out.I am praying for you.