Childhood trauma| living in a homestay

[J-Getting-Better]

I was away from home from a very young age, living in a homestay since I was 12 years old.

This was for the purpose of "a better education". The education in Asia is both competitive and repetitive, so by sending me overseas to the southern hemisphere, they were hoping to "give me a relaxed, fun childhood".

However, the reality deviates from the expectations. I was living like a ghost, at school, I had little friends, because I was fearful of speaking less-than-fluent English. At home, I stayed in my own room, feeling like an outsider in the family.

While this unique experience made me special and different, it had traumatic consequences. I had attachment struggles, and I realize my communication often doesn't go through. It was like I had been in quarantine for 7 years, and I was struggling to cope with the social aspect of life.

[Trainchaser]

I can't imagine doing that. Hope you overcome the effects of having done it