I feel defeated…

Hi, I’m new here and I don’t know where to start. I have suffered from anxiety and depression off and on since junior high. This past year has been extremely difficult. My depression has never been this bad before, almost like a switch went off inside my head and I don’t know how to turn it back on. I recently had to call the hotline because I just felt defeated and so I was done with life. I’m still fighting every single day and I’m afraid that I’m losing this fight!

[Stippler]

Welcome to the group! It often helps me when I remember that, even though I feel like these thoughts and feelings are going to last forever, they are temporary. I am glad you are feeling comfortable enough to call the hotline. I have also found this group to be very supportive and our members caring. Please feel free to post whatever you are comfortable with and you should receive many replies. Sending best wishes.

[gajh]

Welcome. I am glad you are here. You are not alone. You have come to the right place for support.

[HoldingonLou]

I'm sorry for what you are going thru but you are definitely not alone. Do you see a doctor for it? Take any medication for it? There have been times in my life where I have felt very anxious and depressed too. I'm so glad you reached out to the hotline number. You are very strong despite how you may feel. Don't stop reaching out and you can always vent on here. Take care and Hugs

[Hidden in reply to HoldingonLou]

Thank you for your kind words! No I haven’t started seeing anyone for it yet, nor am I currently taking any medication. I’ve always felt ashamed for having these thoughts. I am currently starting the process of finding someone to talk to about my depression.

[HoldingonLou in reply to Hidden]

That's great. There is no reason to feel shame but I know we have been taught to especially in years past. Starting to talk to someone really helps. Even if it doesn't feel right with the first counselor don't give up. Sometimes it takes times to find the right fit. I pray you find a helpful one quickly. Medications are the same way, it's trial and error sometimes and please don't let it contribute to feeling defeated. Hugs