My OCD

[catarinass99]

Hi. I have OCD and panic attacks. I am taking medication for 2 years but was diagnosed with OCD almost a year ago. I don't know what to do. I feel so alone in my symptoms. I read about symptoms of people being afraid to harm someone like a significant other but never heard of being the other way around. I am afraid of somebody harming me. More spicifically killing me. Like a loved one that I thought I could trust but I can't or someone I don't know. I was recently hospitalized and I am having a really hard time accepting it even though it's for 3 months. I believe that the people are there for other reasons. Not the same as mine. I feel so alone, so stupid, like something is wrong with me and my brain. Why would the people I love and that love me with they whole heart do that?I would I even think that? My brain knows it doesn't make any sense but that doesn't stop the obsessive thoughts and panic from arriving. Does anyone struggle with this too? I can't be alone. I feel so bad about myself. I feel I'm going crazy.

[catarinass99]

Yes. I was seeing a psychologist and she said she had other cases like this before but I still feel weird and alone. Maybe she said that to comfort me.

[catarinass99]

I have support groups where I'm hospitalised but to my knowledge nobody has the same mental condition I do. That's why I tried here.

[catarinass99]

Thank you for your time and kindness!