Falling on hard times

[Lookingforhope20100]

It's been a few weeks since I posted last, so let's catch up. Two weeks ago I got very sick, and the doctors don't know what is wrong. They blame the fact I still smoke marijuana as it is legal in my state. But I know that's not the problem. My mental state is plummeting. I am no doctor, but I know the signs of my hypomania. I get annoyed and agitated more often, and I can't relax. My daughter doesn't want to play with me because I yell at her for doing the wrong thing. It's not like I want to yell at her, but I feel this anger inside me. It fills my chest until I shout at everyone. And lately, it feels like no one wants me around anymore. I never have money to get what I need or want, but my boyfriend can buy whatever he wants. When I ask him for help with my bills, he says that I need to be responsible for my bills, gas, and food. I work at a gas station/convenience store. I work 5 days a week and make at most 350 each week, and he wants most of my check to pay his bills. like what gives him the right to even ask me that? ugh, my anger is bubbling to the surface as I type so that will be all for now hope you all have a great day

[Lookingforhope20100]

I'm on wellbutrin been on it for years

[yhsbirny]

I think u need a new boyfriend. Constant financial problems are a great source of anxiety and contribute to other all other forms of anxiety and depression. If I am intepreting what you're saying about your financial situation correctly, he is a direct contributor to your problem. Nothing gives him the right to demand your money unless that is the agreement you have. I know it is a lot easier said than done, but try to break away; there are social services that can help you, providing shelter and other help. Think of your daughter; do you really want this spilling over into your relationship with her? No antidepressant in the world will hellp as long as you are stuck in a miserable social situation. What it should do is give you the mental and spiritual energy to chage your situation. Good luck; I know you are in a bad spot.

[Trainchaser]

Your boyfriend is not being fair with you.