I was overwhelmed, too much socializing and being out, my roommate did a party without warning after i saw dad and sis for my birthday and was already triggered. I went to a friend's birthday and my other roommate called (i didn't even know she was in the city) and scolded me for cleaning. I was crying through the whole party. Called my dad, my stepmother is a friend of my roommate and thought she could talk to her or something, but dad only started critising me "You can't clean. You lack skills. We were too easy on you, didn't teach u to clean? How you clean dust? Wrong! How you clean the sink? Wrong" and "i hate when women just want to call to complain but take no resolution". This hurted.( I was already worried because my therapist told me mom's unreliable, called her, sis answered, i asked If mom's taking good care of her but mom heard and i was scared of her going mad and giving her to dad. I asked dad If mom or sis had called him, he got annoyed and i worried he will stop caring about me. Felt bad i'm not working, supposed to be living life espessially before my internship and university start and i worry). And i went to the room i was staying in for the birthday to get a med and calm down and one of her guests came. I thought he was trying to see If i'm okay but he wanted to take advantage of me being not okay. I went back to the main hall because there are a lot of People and is safer. Later he got in a fight for another girl. Now trying to cope with my roommates, worried i couldn't chill before my internship, worried about dad, worried about my therapist, worried about my future, my roommate playing loud music.
I talked with my psychiatrist, he said, it's anxiety and he won't prescribe me more meds. I also can't take them in this state. And i don't have much money. Worried dad is giving me less. And my sister has a nameday and i can't afford the gift i wanted to buy her.
Also everyone giving weird advice and it overwhelms me. I'm tired
It s a lot
Thanks for reading