just tell me I’m not alone

[Blugirl76]

Sometimes, it’s hard to smile when you’re feeling like your want to crawl in a fetal position and cry. If I start to cry I’ll never be able to stop

[Agora1]

Hi Blugirl76, sometimes we have to cry in order to release those hormones of sadness.

You are certainly not alone in feeling this way. I'd like to Welcome you to a caring

and supportive group of virtual friends. xx

[Blugirl76 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for showing me I’m not alone. Thanks for such a warm welcome☺️

[gajh]

You are not alone. I am here. It is ok to cry. You will be able to stop. Maybe you need a good cry. It really is ok. I am glad you are here reaching out.

[Blugirl76 in reply to gajh]

thank you for reassuring me I’m not alone. Sometimes, that’s all I need to hear.

[gajh]

I am glad that helped.

[Shnookie]

When I occasionally have a good cry, it’s letting toxins of pain out of my body. Yes I know, it can be draining. R U on meds to regulate your mood ? This might be helpful as well. I’m here 4 U. Hugs 🤗 S

[Blugirl76]

I am not on medication. I am going through menopause on top of everything else so maybe that’s also contributing to my depression and anxiety. I don’t mind having a good cry but I have my son who still lives at home who is on the spectrum of autism if he sees me crying he will get upset. I have a hard time allowing people to see me broken especially my kids.

[Teaching]

You are not alone. Let it out if you can. It helps.

[Blugirl76 in reply to Teaching]

Thank you so much.

[Trainchaser]

Sometimes you need to cry to get out things that are building up inside of you. I am a good actor putting on a smile or a laugh when I feel awful

[Blugirl76 in reply to Trainchaser]

Yes, I always wear a facade when I interact with others since they don’t understand why I feel sad. I hate when people tell me that I have so many blessings..:: yes, I do but when I feel so awful it’s so hard to be thankful for the things I do have. It’s hard to smile on the outside when that depression is kicking your soul in the dirt in the inside. Is it wrong to feel thankful I am not the only one after seeing all this support here?

[Zhangliqun in reply to Blugirl76]

It's NOT wrong to be thankful that there are others out there like you. You can look to them (us) for help. God will build you up through talking to others like you so that someday soon he will use you as his instrument to save others like you. He will make this illness worthwhile.

[Blugirl76 in reply to Zhangliqun]

I have been praying so much lately. I made myself a small prayer room in my closet and sometimes writing down what’s going on in my heads helps, but I am such a worry wart and a worst case scenario type of person which sucks. It doesn’t matter what it’s about I will worst case scenario every situation and even if it hasn’t happened I fear it will.

[Zhangliqun in reply to Blugirl76]

Most of us in here have the same vulnerability of catastrophizing the simplest and most mundane/harmless things. (I've been fighting it off a bit lately too -- though thank God it's nowhere near as bad as it used to be.) The basic formula is to just let out the tears when you can and then go forward. Cry and go forward.

Don't let it keep you in bed, don't let it make you stop trying, because if you do, it WILL get worse. The Devil likes to isolate you so you can hear only your negative thought spiral (and his egging you on about it of course) so to increase your sense of helplessness and hopelessness.

Therefore, the times you least want to get up, go, and do, are the times you most need to do it. Cry and go forward. You need the sound of other people's voices to knock the negative thought patterns out of your head, if only for a little while, because doing so weakens those patterns. Continue to take this approach and to be around people -- who cares if they don't understand, how can they? You just need one or two in your corner anyway -- and those thought patterns will get slowly but steadily weaker. Cry and go forward.

There is no suffering that God can't use for his holy purposes. He is using me now to talk to you when in 1994 I was tossing and turning every night, sheets soaked with sweat, unable to sleep or work, and I was about to buy a gun and eat it. But he taught me how to cry and go forward.

Some people out there don't know it yet, but they're about to get sick like and you and me. Without the voice of experience -- you -- they will die by their own hand. Their lives depend on you, so cry and GO FORWARD.

[Blugirl76 in reply to Zhangliqun]

I really needed to hear this.

. I am glad you didn’t “bite it” I would have not had the pleasure of being guided by you. Thank you for the kind words and positive voice in my head.

[Zhangliqun in reply to Blugirl76]

Regular exercise is also very important. Not casual, something that makes you huff and puff for a while. It changes your brain chemistry for the better.

[Trainchaser in reply to Blugirl76]

No it is not wrong. When I see people going through the same issues as me it is reassuring to be that I am not out on a island by myself

[catsrock]

I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. How are you doing today? And you are SO not alone in this - it sucks. I have been there many times.

[Blugirl76 in reply to catsrock]

Today is like every day. I wake up and am thankful for another day but soon as I get up I feel anxious in my stomach and want to cry… at this moment right now. I feel okay. Thank goodness for that. Thank you for reassuring me I’m not alone.

[Browny71 in reply to Blugirl76]

Hi Blugirl, I was there for the past 2 months. Waking up and immediately this sense of dread would take over followed by a undesirable need to cry, but I would anyway. Find a place where you can be alone and let it all out. I was on antidepressants for 20 plus yrs and decided I felt okay and stopped them. Well I had the worse relapse in depression that I asked my psychiatrist to put me back on them. It’s been 10 days that they kicked in. It took about 12 weeks for that. Today I don’t have those horrible days. Some people need meds, others don’t. Seek professional help. Hope you feel better soon.

[Shield_Of_Faith]

Yeah I know the feeling all to well. I have to put on a fake smile which in some cases feels like putting on a mask and really telling everyone around me I'm fine! When I feel I need to cry and just break and shatter. I have fell apart in front my family alot but I also try to hide it when I can alot too. Your not alone. I get it.

[Blugirl76 in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

I’m sorry you are going through a tough time also. It’s terrible when you have to hide your feelings and emotions from family bc they are supposed to be your top supporters, I have very limited support at home so this site is a blessing

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Blugirl76]

Well my mom and brother are very supportive of me but I feel I burden them wayyyyyy too much with my many panic attacks and meltdowns that at times I see how to much I can get. Even when they say they understand and they do I see how my mental disorder takes a toll not only on me but my family as well. So I try to hide it. I don't always do a great job and then i fall apart and I feel like a nuisance to them. They never said or never showed but sometimes I just see how exhausted they are when taking care of me and my panic attacks.

[Blugirl76 in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

I get that. I know people who say they understand really think they do. It’s hard to not obsess over how terrible we feel when we are in that moment of feeling that horrible feeling that covers us like a dark cloud. I’m glad your mom and brother support you. I lost my mom when I was a little girl so I wish I had her to talk to sometimes

[Shield_Of_Faith in reply to Blugirl76]

Exactly.I really am sorry for your loss of your mom.

If you need someone to talk to I'm here. I always respond to messages it just may take sometime to reply because I'm busy or somethings going on in my life at the moment.

But I always get back to people.

I pray and hope you find many good people on here to support you as I have. 🙏

[Blugirl76 in reply to Shield_Of_Faith]

Aww thank you for being here! Same goes for me