Got knocked down

[Gradients-of-Blue]

I've been with my current therapist for a little more than a year now. When I felt ready to take on the world, she was there to make sure I'm doing okay. When I got into an emotional wreck, I could contact her to help me through it. I've learned grounding techniques, better ways to communicate and be able to breath from her. But because I made a decision to move in with my family, I essentially lost my safe space to talk with her and I don't want to start over again with a new therapist. I tried contacting my uni about a room but because this is my first semester with them I don't have my ID yet, and apparently I'm not fully in the system. So I can't rent a conference room where I know I feel safe enough to talk openly. I can't do it at home because my father works from home and I can't ask him to leave for an hour for safety reasons. I've tried so many libraries but I can't get a room where I feel safe to talk. I've tried my school's psychiatry office and they said they can only let me use their room if I'm talking that unis therapist. Too much is going on right now, and I really needed to talk to her today. I've run out of ways to keep being with her and I really don't want to start again because of where I am at mentally.

[gajh]

Does your father have a car? Could you talk to your therapist from the car? I know that isn't the most convenient, but it might be better than nothing. It would be a shame to lose this therapist. Keep brainstorming to come up with a solution. Does your therapist have any other ideas?? I wish you the best.

[Gradients-of-Blue in reply to gajh]

I've tried to do therapy in my car, problem is my state is having extreme heat problems. So the hour session it takes will overheat my phone after 10 minutes.

[gajh in reply to Gradients-of-Blue]

You mentioned that your father is home working. I don't know what he does for work but maybe you could have him play music while you go into another room to talk privately knowing he won't overhear you. Or have you asked your father if there is another solution? Does your therapist have an office that you could go to instead of just the phone?

[Gradients-of-Blue in reply to gajh]

Partly why I have trust issues is that when I ask for space or try to get a boundary respected(verbal ones), They won't respect it for more than a day or two. She doesn't have an office near me.

[anonymous_on_here in reply to Gradients-of-Blue]

Can you keep the car on and have the AC/fan on?

[Gradients-of-Blue in reply to anonymous_on_here]

That's what I did, so to kind of explain. I turned on the car about 5 minutes before therapy. It is about 101 degrees with high humidity, my car can only cool so much due to age and my father has a clunker that idk if the ac even works. I had the ac blasting on my phone because it would burn up in my car after 5 minutes of use. Therapist couldn't hear me over the ac, so I tried to park under the shade of the tree and still have the ac blast in the car just not on my phone. It took 15 minutes for my phone to overheat. My phone isn't a pos either, it's just too hot outside. I would try putting ice pack to my phone but I'm afraid the condensation will break something like the charge port or speaker.

[anonymous_on_here in reply to Gradients-of-Blue]

Oh ok. Maybe there's a park where there won't be that many people. If you can't find a place, then you can do it in your car after the weather gets cooler.

[b1b1b1]

I had this problem in the past when I wanted to talk to my psychiatrist in private. I did talk on my cell phone while in my car, as gajh mentions. I would drive to a place with good reception and shade and it worked very well. You may also be able to talk from a park bench. Look around your neighborhood. There may be possibilities you haven't thought of. These ideas are not perfect, but can be more than adequate.

[Gradients-of-Blue]

The other problem along with my phone overheating is that I just don't feel safe talking outside a small room. I can do it in my car but I resist talking about serious issues so I don't end up crying.

[CLB1125]

if your parents know you are talking to a therapist, talk to them about it. They might have a solution so you can have some privacy.

[Gradients-of-Blue in reply to CLB1125]

Their solution is to not go to therapy, or find a new one. I already tried to tell them and they want to know why I don't want to do it in the house. I can't tell them, so I had to end the discussion.

[Gradients-of-Blue]

I do appreciate all the suggestions but I understand my situation, when I say I have tried everything... I mean everything. I'm just sad and disappointed that I can't do therapy with my therapist.

[Outtolunch]

I had the same issue. Also, when I went to my therapists office, outside each office door, on the floor was a small white noise blocker. This prevented the people waiting in the small lobby from overhearing any conversations within the offices. I purchased one and place outside whatever room I'm teleconferencing with my therapist so I can talk freely and no one outside the room can hear what I'm saying. I purchased on Amazon. It's called lectrofan and there's a number of noises to choose from. There are many other manufacturers that make similar ones. They range from $25-$100. Hope this helps!

[Gradients-of-Blue in reply to Outtolunch]

This might actually help with my issue, now I just gotta rub anti rabbit oil on it lol

[WickNeo]

Do you have a closet? Sometimes, I sit in a closet to have a private conversation.

[Gradients-of-Blue in reply to WickNeo]

I have a desk set up in the closet so it's no longer a closet. I am more clear headed from when I first posted, my gf and I are testing out a noise machine but my trust in my family respecting my privacy like this is gone. Thats where the issue lies right now.

[WickNeo]

I bought an alarm clock for my daughter that plays 6 different types of noise; white, pink, brown, birds, rain and another I can't quite recall. It has a volume button and if my daughter were to have a conversation over the bird noise I could not pick out individual words she was saying. Good luck masking your conversations from your family. It takes an extraordinary family to change for one person’s needs. I wouldn't hold my breath on my family being able to accomplish that!

Good luck on your journey to wellness, it is bumpy, long and filled with similarly challenged individuals. We will meet again as our paths cross.