So angry

[Atthepark]

I woke up angry like really really mad all day long. I didn't feel up to going out and distracting myself bc I am so angry and I was scared something would piss me off and send me into a rage. Most times I'm not working I feel this way. I've been in my apt all alone nobody called me today. Then once I started to calm down like 6 hours later my stomach started hurting me a lot. I've been having these pains off n on for months but like I said I'm all alone dealing w this pain by myself which is the epitome of living alone ND how bd it sucks. I hate this rn wish I could disappear

[012703060610]

Both physical and mental pain for me seem to be equal! I am married with three young kids but wasting away physically. I think I feel even more alone at times because they are off doing lots of fun things that I am unable to do. I was just alone for a few weeks and landed in hospital. I know the pain and hurt. People have stopped calling me or checking in for about 6 months. Now I am a bit older and when people have kids, friendships can get strained....but I mean how could I hear back from NO ONE. I have resigned myself to holding off on the friend search until my brain/mind is right. I'm looking at some of the parental interactions I may have had with kids parents and am very embarrassed. I totally understand the concept of needing to isolate to protect your well being. I too can get a touch of rage....well maybe even more than a touch. To some degree when I am out and seeing lots of happy and engaged people, I really struggle. Wish I had some better advice, just wanted you to know you aren't alone in thoughts or feelings.

[Marysblue]

I was on an antidepressant for about a year and got really angry and the doctor said it was from taking it and never to take it again. I wasn't aware that could happen with medicines. It's only happened to me the once. And I've been on a ton of medicines.