Haven’t been here in a while

[dee_bells]

I was doing so good——I still have major depression and anxiety.

my adult son died in a multi vehicle accident 7 weeks ago - I’m beyond devastated. I called the suicide hotline right away but now I’m on a mission to finalize his estate. Then what? Each day is a challenge and I don’t know if I can handle much more. He was my first born and we had a special bond. It hurts so bad. I have a therapist and psychiatrist and am on meds. I would love to sleep the entire day away but I went back to work pt after 5 weeks.

[Wakeboarder24]

I can’t imagine what you are going through and to have to suffer the pain that you are going through. I virtually put my hand on your shoulder in support and wish the best for you during this tough time 😭💪💪

[Agora1]

dee_bells, I am so truly sorry for your loss. Sending you my

deepest sympathy.

[Stippler]

I am sorry to hear about your loss. I am holding you and your family in the light during this time. 🙏🙏🙏

[012703060610]

I am glad you have come back to this site. As a parent of three, I cannot imagine going through what you are at this moment. I can't imagine how raw and torn your body and mind must feel. I had a friend who lost her son due to suicide a few years ago. It was also her oldest. She came back to work very quickly and realized she needed a leave. For some the distraction may be good but it also may not be good for others. Trust your gut and feelings and I am glad you know all the resources and the kind of support you need. I am truly sorry for such a traumatic loss of life. You will be on my mind. I have found that PTSD counseling and EMDR has helped more than CBT over time. Thank you for coming back to the community, I know we are all here to support. Write as often as you need! Healing vibes headed your way.

[Oshgosh]

I’m thinking of you.

It’s a really hard time for you.

I think what you are suffering is a normal reaction to what has happened.

Do you think you went back to work too soon or does it help to be at work ??