Hello everyone! Haven’t been ...

Hello everyone!

Haven’t been on here for a couple of weeks x Just thought I’d come on and check up on everyone x and update you all

For me things have been both good and bad.

Let’s start with the good... the sun always perks me up . Spent the bank holiday weekend at the lake with a lot of family and my best friend. It was fun and full of laughter. I also spent a lot of time in our garden with my husband which was also nice. 🌞

My cat had to go live with my mother until we found a new home, moved, got renovations done all of which took a full year to do . She is finally reunited with us !!! It took a week to settle her into her new home 🏠

I finally had conversations with two close friends who drifted after I got married and finally got answers and we’re on a good level where we’re talking and healing! 💕

Most of our house renovations are finally done! Its starting to feel like a home now 🏡

The bad? My childhood abuse wounds seemed to have reopened... I have a lot of anger and pain . I was in denial for years. I want justice... I can’t keep pretending I’m okay . 😢 💔

I pray you’re all well please update me on what’s happening in your lives? How you feel? How did the sunny weather impact your health? Xx 😘

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Hi Hope.

Thank you for sharing. Sounds like you have been real busy 😊

Great news about the renovations mostly complete!

Sounds like it was a lovely time at the lake on bank holiday too.

I’m sorry for your struggles in respect abuse wounds, I hope it’s possible for you to do whatever you need to, to rid yourself of these wounds, it’s hard work, and painful. You deserve a life free of these wounds.

Me, well I’ve taken a dive recently , after doing ok for a while. I’m disappointed and sad, the sun used to be a favourite thing of mine, now it is a trigger 😞 too many people around, especially neighbours in gardens ...

So I stayed indoors for bank holiday. Had a nice day trip out this week and went for lunch yesterday so that’s nice. Gonna keep trying to get back on track...today I’ve decided I will stay indoors , maybe have a bubble bath and face pack, kinda spa day , with the spa music in the background....it helps 😊

Best wishes to you x

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Thank you for replying x

I really am so sorry to hear about you feeling down.. x it is such a rollercoaster isn’t it! I know the feeling of wanting to stay inside and not be seen x I often feel that way too x

Your day trip and lunch sounds good! I’m glad you were able to enjoy that x

Spa day in sounds like the most perfect day ! I pray it makes you feel amazing!!!

Take good care and you already know this but I’m always available for a chat x 💕

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Thank you 🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷

[Starrlight]

Now that it’s warm out I exercise 1-3 times a day which keeps my anxiety down somewhat and I feel the endorphins and now am addicted to exercise!

I’m glad you have so many good things happening in your life like reuniting with your cat! I am happy for you Hope!!! I wish I was able to move and to do house renovations. Some day

Sounds like you are strong enough now to deal with the childhood wounds otherwise they wouldn’t be surfacing I bet. So sorry you have those wounds. Sending healing vibes(((((((((((((

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Hey Starlight so good to hear from you x

Wow that’s amazing news! Exercise is amazing I’ve also started it but I’m very new to it , a beginner x so far i find it difficult due to my lung illness but also helpful x

Im not so sure I’m strong enough actually. Having a lot of breakdowns at the money but hey upwards and onwards x

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((((((((Hope)))))))) Gentle hug

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I'm happy for you Hope with all the good things...and I too am a survivor of abuse....what work have you done on this so far...have you gone to therapy....have you done any workbook exorcise's....gone to any group therapy....I know about those wounds....they are deep and seem to never really completely go away....and you have every right to want justice...it's just a matter of sorting out what you can and can't do....how you can make things okay for you...it's a very deep and personal journey of healing...glad your here sharing about it.

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Im sorry to hear that you also experienced abuse .

To be honest i blanked it now for almost 10 years since i told my mum and it all came out . I’ve completely blanked it and let myself be whisked and hidden away by it . Now its all just come back ...

the abuser is still around... Not within my eyesights but still alive and kicking living the great life...

I don’t know if I’ll even get over it

I have done nothing to heal from it ...