I haven’t been on here in a couple weeks. I’ve been feeling a bit better, although I have had my days. I’m planning on getting back into the gym this week with a couple friends, and by myself. I want to lose this baby weight and get back to my old self. I want to have energy again and to feel confident and happy. My boyfriend tells me I put myself down to much even if it is “jokingly” calling myself a whale. I suppose saying things like that doesn’t help me feel better. I guess I just have a hard time saying anything positive about myself. I don’t have any idea why, or where it came from,but it’s a bit of a problem. I can understand his frustration because it would bug me too. My main issue is self esteem. I think that’s what fuels my depression and anxiety.