Scary flashbacks of university city

[Against_the_current]

Wondering whether I should just stay here. Imagine going back there, i will cry. But idk if i can stay with mom. 5am Anxiety and sorrow

[LoveforAll41]

Hi against_the_current, I am sorry that you have had a traumatic experience. This might be a case where a list of pros and cons could help you out? I moving to an altogether different place an option? I know that there is help out there and you can put in the work to flourish anywhere, but some places may have an advantage.

May you have strength and peace

[Against_the_current in reply to LoveforAll41]

Thanks. I need a place to flourish but nobody offers me such, especially not the country. Nobody cares im dying and need space. Big city full of bussiness sharks, beggars, overpriced normal accomodations, crowded streets, memories... I can't take care of myself. But i don't think mom will be willing to take care of me neither especially when time from my surgery passes and i recover. She's jelaous and resentless i have no work and just sleep and panic

[Hidden]

Hey, I really feel sad for you. Please Don't panic so much, Do what you think is better for you and your mental health. Even the decision is to go back to your mom . I know it's not easy at all. As I can really understand such situation very well.

I too wanna go back to my mom and want my life like before easy and full of happiness. It's so mess right now here. Everything seems so exhausted.

Hope you get better soon

Sending you love and strength.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thanks. I need a place to flourish but nobody offers me such, especially not the country. Nobody cares im dying and need space. Big city full of bussiness sharks, beggars, overpriced normal accomodations, crowded streets, memories... I can't take care of myself. But i don't think mom will be willing to take care of me neither especially when time from my surgery passes and i recover. She's jelaous and resentless i have no work and just sleep and panic

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

I also hate city life so much , and talking about my mom I don't wanna bother her anymore so I can't stay with her. I try to adjust myself alone here, I even found myself struggling so hard to be consistent on my job. My social Anxiety is so bad that it ruins everything.

I hope slowly you'll heal and find happiness in yourself. Take care of yourself. Bad days are temporary.

And whenever you will low and need to talk with someone, I'm always here for you. You can text me anytime.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. My mom just showed me why i ran away to this scary place. Drunk speeck, hating on my extremely talented sister who has an animation competition and her laptop stopped working

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

You don't stress over this. what you did is your best decision, rather than living with your mom in mess, it's best for you to live alone, Day by day start to find happiness within yourself. You'll heal soon.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. That's what I need. I'm struggling living alone, having breakdowns, living in miserable conditions. Can't find a job with my mental health. I hope i heal

[Hidden in reply to Against_the_current]

I can really understand it better, I'm also going through the same, getting job with anxiety issues is really so tuff for me. I too lost hope many times. It feels like hell. I'm so done.

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

I don't know what i will do with this. I have insane Anxiety and I can't even study and i don't know how i will find a job