A new day

[Sandpiper14]

Today I woke up at 4:30 am and I have work at 9am! I can’t go back to bed so I’ve walked to the shop to get some toast and lucozade. I’m still coming off a hangover from Saturday night and I have major anxiety. I’ve decided to give up drinking (please wish me luck, I’m in my early 20s so I need it).

I always feel like I’m getting so far with coming out of my depression. May was a good month but I’ve started this month off rocky. Praying June will bring me clarity and happiness.

#anxiety #depression #bingedrinking

[Shnookie]

so sorry that U R still getting over a hangover The fact that U have acknowledged your drinking issues on HU is a positive step. It’s not a good idea to mix booze with pills. U can work on this issue with your therapist. Sending you good karma.

[Sandpiper14 in reply to Shnookie]

Yep on my morning commute feeling sick as a dog. I swear this is the last time. I decided to start telling people I’m on medication so they take it easy on me and don’t make me feel like I have to drink with them! Thanks for the support!

[Sandpiper14]

I’m so grateful to have found this community 💜 I am ready to embrace past mistakes but say hey I’m working on it! One day at a time!

[012703060610]

Oh do I miss my 20s! There does come a point that it can be too hard to handle. I haven't drank for about 5 years and it certainly helped with some other issues. I used to have no control when going out literally had to change jobs to get out of the social work pressures. It was like drinking until 2am on week days was normal. I started fresh at a new job and actually didn't go to Happy Hours for more than an hour. Then I realized I didn't need that one drink at happy hour either. It's just a healthy step and I love to hear people doing the best they can to help their situations. Lots of luck. Be strong and hangovers are the worst!

[Sandpiper14 in reply to 012703060610]

was your 20s as messy as mine? I try to give myself a little leeway when I get this bad and think oh I am in my 20s everyone makes mistakes and tell myself that I’m young and still growing but yep time to actually stop now! Think I’ve done enough for the next few decades!

[012703060610 in reply to Sandpiper14]

HOT MESS. I probably should have been arrested many times. Not for hurting or stealing....but public display of being drunk.....yeah that was me. Dancing on bars in bare feet with broken glass type of stuff. Yet all of this behavior was what my job was like....financial services. I saved a voice mail from more than a decade ago where a senior leader called around 1-2am in Vegas.....yelling that if I didn't come back out that I would never get to a certain job. Some things I can look back and laugh....but many memories I wish I could erase! Spent 30s having kids and just turned 44.

[Sandpiper14 in reply to 012703060610]

Ok hopefully this is just my hot mess stage then!! Sorry to hear about that job.. seems very toxic! I hope life gets more clearer at 44! Thank u for the perspective!

[Owl__]

I’m wishing you well through your journey. What helped me a lot throughout my journey of depression and anxiety is having a good support system, therapist and picking up healthy hobbies. What helped me sleep at night is doing 3 positive affirmations before bed and listening to a white noise machine. I would try to replace drinking with a positive hobby.

[Sandpiper14 in reply to Owl__]

Thanks for the support. Although I feel pretty crappy right now, I’m kind of feeling more optimistic than ever to really become the best version of myself!

[Alive2023]

Good luck, you can overcome this with the help and support of experts. Please get all the support you can, you've the whole life ahead of you.