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i’m going to try and start at the beginning. I’ve always suffered from anxiety and depression lately it has gotten extremely bad and I work customer service at a big time company answering the phone all day and people are really rude and self-centered and it takes a toll on me. my stomach has been hurting so bad I’ve been throwing up and have diarrhea at the same time

my brother has schizophrenia, and I take care of him. My mother is in nursing care from dementia. She gave us a house to live in, but forgot to pay the property taxes. The house is still in my mothers name.. I am now responsible for paying back the back taxes that were due. I have a court order by the judge. If I don’t make the current property taxes and the back property taxes, the house will go into foreclosure. I’m so broke I go to the food shelf. I had a part-time job working at cub foods and they fired me recently. I was saving money to keep up with the taxes and current bills and debt. I am about to lose my mind and give up. I barely eat due to stress and the throwing up! My body hurts, I have headaches and my stomach is always cramping. I feel like an orphan as my father could care less of my situation my brother and I are in. And moms off with the fairies. Sometimes I just want cry, I am scared. Being tough is too much I just sit and stare on my days off unable to cook or clean. Sometimes it’s just a failure trying to brush my teeth or shower. And the icing on this cake is I have no perception medication coverage through work so because of that I can’t pay for my medication to stop the depression or anxiety. Any advice would help. I’m just trying to survive.

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Blueruth

that sounds super hard. If you show progress to the judge and work with the county will they keep you from being evicted? I mean it sounds liking you are working hard. You can definitely find another job. It isn’t the end of the world at all. I’m rooting for you! :)

Re medication…do you know about cost plus? They don’t take insurance but most of the prices are lower than copays anyway. Completely legit company. Most anti depressants are pretty cheap. Like 5/month.

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Blueruth in reply to Blueruth

costplusdrugs.com/

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Treat-fairy in reply to Blueruth

Thank you for the input- I will look into the cost plus thing!

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EndUser13

Welcome to the forums 🙂 I'm glad you're reaching out, there are some really kind, wise people here.

Your situation sounds particularly rough. When I started having problems with anxiety I went to a county funded health center, I was able to get a therapist and psychiatrist for nearly no cost.

When you think about failure, remind yourself that you are carrying a heavy load and try to consider how strong you must be to keep struggling.

Try to tackle issues one at a time so you don't feel too overwhelmed, I realize that's not an easy thing to do when you have so many worries. Small steps will add up! I hope you keep coming back here

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Treat-fairy in reply to EndUser13

Thank you - today I want to just sleep. I almost started crying again about what crappy show I’m in but I am thankful for my loving dogs and cat.

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EndUser13 in reply to Treat-fairy

Yeah sleep can seem like an inviting escape when we feel awful. I've always liked the Chinese proverb of "be not afraid of growing slowly, be afraid of only standing still"

Keep coming back, let us all know how things go

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Rachmaninov2 in reply to EndUser13

I haven’t heard that proverb before, but I like it too!

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Treat-fairy in reply to Rachmaninov2

I like it too never thought of it that way!

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Rachmaninov2 in reply to Treat-fairy

It’s similar to how I have always felt about needing some sense of momentum each day. Once “standing still” becomes a pattern it becomes more difficult to move forward or “grow slowly.” I know it’s easier said than done though.

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Treat-fairy

hi guys! I am not working today, because Cub foods fired me! I slept good and I got something in my belly and that is motivate me this morning. Got my shower in. I brushed my teeth doing my laundry and cleaned up the kitchen. Looking forward to making a good dinner. I just cleaned off one of my cocktail tables and watching a movie and I think I might vacuum up the dog and cat for oh and by the way I mopped up the basement floor.! I love my little critters. They look at me with hope and joy.

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EndUser13 in reply to Treat-fairy

I'm sorry about cub foods, although you sound like you're in good spirits and making good use of your time. You gotta love all the floofs, they make life so much nicer! I've always felt that gratitude is a major part of being truly happy, so it's nice that you're able to focus on something good despite all the negative.

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