I will be going home and im panicking whether it's the right decision

[Against_the_current]

I'm homesick and can't take care of myself so i thought I can go back home with mom when she comes this monday to visit me for my surgery. I texted mom im coming with her but rn im panicking if she drinks or acts bad. I panic every day. I can't go on longer walks because i get weak, dizzy, dissosiated. I can't even go to the university to take my prize for the writing contest and can't go to the gym even though my card is active now and wondering whether to stop it or freeze it for next month or have one more month and freeze and stop. Decisions make me go crazy. Panicing if i made the wrong decision to go back home and should just have taken better care of myself here but here even without a reason im panicking and having hard time feeding myself and being really weak and fatigued

[Hidden]

You must take care of yourself and health is priority. Sounds like you are going to making the safest and best decision you can. Cope but don't quit on life

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. Really trying and going there because of my health. Still worried about my mental health. Trying. Thank you

[Existing]

It sounds like whe i get that "sense of impending doom", the feeling of fear and overwhelm that nothing is right. Thats when I really feel the need to focus on getting centered, in myself. Because there's a feeling like I'm kind of jumping out of my skin in all different directions.There are some good "meditations" that help. Like 5 to 10 minute ones where you just focus on being present. Search YouTube for mindfulness, guided meditations, grounding. Good luck.

[Against_the_current in reply to Existing]

Exactly sence of impending doom especially when it comes to my parents. I love mindfulness meditations, i can't fall asleep without them. Thank you

[309Ygi]

watch Anna kujwa on YouTube . After you’ll know what’s best for you . First tell divine what you need . Divine does know how to guide you correctly

[Against_the_current in reply to 309Ygi]

I will try, thanks 🙏

[bethelbee in reply to Against_the_current]

Tara Brach is another one on YouTube. Her videos helped me for a while.