I don't know what else to do.

[Apple46168]

It's been a long time since I've posted mostly because I just try to handle everything on my own. I'm not doing well with that right now. I've had a headache more days than not for more than a year, I'm exhausted, and we can't seem to find the cause. Constantly feeling like my head and face are in a vice is wearing me down and I feel like everyone I know is probably over hearing about it. Whether I'm isolating myself because I think that or they're actually tired of it, the effect is the same, I feel incredibly isolated, disconnected. And overwhelmed because on top of all of that I still need to keep everything moving for myself, my husband and our 3 kids. On top of working way too much, which is one of the few things my husband and I agree on- that I work too much. But I don't know how what else to do. I obviously have to keep going. If for nothing other than my 3 little kids, I have to keep going but I don't want to. I want to run away. Or jump out the one window on the 6th floor of our building that I know opens. I just don't know how to find my way back to a place where I enjoy life. Is that even possible anymore? 😢

[Apple46168]

I joke that I don't really know how to read but it's actually true. I think the last time I took a full deep breath and didn't worry about anything and relaxed was my girls only vacation for my sister's birthday is March of 2020. So probably about time, huh?

[Apple46168 in reply to Apple46168]

Don't know how to *relax (apparently my phone doesn't even recognize the word)

[Apple46168]

We have a family vacation coming up in about 2 weeks which will be a great break from work but any vacation with 3 kids and a giant dog where I will also probably still have a headache won't be much of a vacation.

[Junella in reply to Apple46168]

As below set aside a spa day for yourself, even at home when these kids are in school perhaps. I think that is why God set aside a Sabbath for humankind to rest after 6 days of work; because they weren't made for working all the time. Start your Sabbath now. Ask your family for help; maybe they could celebrate it too.

[Maltipoos]

May I suggest a spa day for yourself before that vacation?

[CLB1125]

I suffer with headaches, have since I was a child. what are the doctors doing about them? I have been diagnosed with everything from it's all in your mind, to chronic migraines, and everything in between. I agree with everyone else. you need some down time. I know how hard that is with little ones. maybe you could get hubby to take them somewhere for a couple hours so you can shut off your phone and just chill for awhile?

[Downinil]

As long as you’re alive it is possible to become happy again.