I'm on alert all the time, why didn't he write when he was going to write to me, why didn't he talk. The moment he writes to me or there are moments when I overcome the panic and calm down. but in those moments, my heart begins to tighten, I'm not focused on work, I can't sleep and I can't eat, I've lost my appetite. I feel powerless and I don't know what to do. I thought about leaving this toxic relationship, but on the other hand, I don't want to lose this person. What can I do to overcome this situation that is destroying me
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Maybe he is very busy?
Since you’re on an Anxiety and Depression forum, I assume you suffer like we do. Are you in treatment? Has your therapist made any helpful suggestions? Do you have close friends you can turn to to help you figure out a direction?
Welcome to this community. We’re here for you while you are on your journey.
no i have none of them thats why i am here
So sorry you are struggling. Try to focus on doing something for you; taking care of yourself first. I’m sure you did nothing wrong, sounds like it just wasn’t meant to be.
This isn't a very healthy relationship for either of you. You don't deserve to be treated in the way you have been. He doesn't treated women very well or doesn't know how to. Women in general should not have to tolerate this kind of behavior from their significant other. And vice versa.It sounds like when you're thinking of him, you're afraid of being stuck in that relationship. He isn't the right person for you if you're always on alert. That right there should give you signals that it is not a "relationship you should be in". This is a life commitment and I'd hate to see anyone go thru this kind of relationship. I've seen some like this and it doesn't end well.
You need to focus on your health and start over. Again I've seen these types of relationships. And it's not a pretty sight seeing people argue, fight ALL the time. It's sad.
When you say 'toxic', what do you mean?