Quarantining has lead to clearer thoughts?

[Dot_]

Things are kinda rough right now. My aunt (who I moved in with to save money BUT she isn't the easiest person to live with, almost always being watched) had covid. Long story short, she got better and then I got covid despite keeping my distance.

I am on day 3 of quarantining, because that's what a normal, considerate person does. And when I walk around the house to get food, I wear a mask. (My aunt did not do that, and instead lounged in the open living room right next to the kitchen.) Sorry, I'm a little salty about it. Mostly because now I've missed 3 days of work, I only work part time and don't get sick days. So thats 3 days no money and well as a general 3 days gone.

However, in my time away from people I'm realizing that my depression and deep rooted issues are going back further than I thought, all the way back fo my childhood. I think I should restart therapy and be honest. I don't think I've ever actually been in a session and shared exactly what I was thinking. I want to, but why does it have to be so hard?

[LilyAnnepuppy]

If I share what’s honestly going on with me, I’m vulnerable. And I don’t like being vulnerable. It’s a scary place to be.

But I have to trust my therapist or else how am I able to get better?

Take the leap.

[Dot_ in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Yes, thats exactly it. Being vulnerable is hard. Especially when it's someone you don't know. But you're right, how else could I get better if I don't ever confront the lingering issues at hand.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Dot_]

And the only way to get to know someone is to spend time with them.

[Starrlight]

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