going through a breakdown

[MandyBueno]

I gradually feel it coming every time I’m about to struggle with anxiety and this Sunday I started realizing that it was hitting me. I was over at my in laws and talking and I got very antsy ( gripping my fingers, biting nails). I couldn’t identify any triggers, there was absolutely nothing wrong with the conversation I was having but this feeling of desperation quickly creeped in. I try to shut It down and don’t talk much about it. Monday comes in ( I do not have to work) and I stay at home and that’s when it hit me the most. I was pacing around, biting my nails, agitated. My chest is about to explode. I took some natural stuff to help it but since I haven’t been taking it constantly, of course, it is unsuccessful. I try to identify what it is… I know it’s nothing knew. I have a good life, I’m surrounded by great people. But every now and then this feeling sets in… the most common thoughts I have in my mind is “ what am I doing in this life? What’s the point anyway? Everything just keeps repeating itself”. Also I feel horrible cause even though I have my own little routine, me and my husband we do everything under our control to kinda stray away from our daily routines. I just don’t understand why anxiety is taking place. Why do I feel like I can run a marathon, why do I feel so anxious over absolutely nothing? . Why can’t I just sit still?.

Please, someone tell me… is that anxiety? Is that how it feels? Can anyone relate to it? . Cause even though I try to distract myself, playing a game, watching tv, driving around… it is still there. It’s been 2 days

[Agora1]

Hi Mandy, it's called "free floating anxiety" when you seem to go in and out of

being fidgety and feeling unsettling. In most people who struggle with anxiety disorder,

the adrenaline levels never really go down, a little stays around like a pilot light.

It can take a thought, a sound or something you read and the pilot light turns anxiety

on full blast.

The way to control these feelings of uncertainty is by practicing relaxation of the

mind and body daily along with breathing exercises. It's too late once you are in

full blown panic.

Your mind must be retrained in not responding to these break throughs. Meditation

is like putting money in the bank for a rainy day. Once it starts raining and you are

caught without an umbrella, it's too late ..

I hope this makes some kind of sense. xx

[MandyBueno in reply to Agora1]

you are an angel! It makes sense to me! Glad to hear I’m not the only one.

[Agora1 in reply to MandyBueno]

Mandy dear, you are by far not the only one. I suffered for a long time experiencing

the same thing. Only through my own experiences am I able to pass it forward. xx