I want to punch my therapist. Plus Update : I made it out alive (unfortunately)

[Against_the_current]

Thanks to everyone giving a damn about me and giving me a bit of kindness in this antiutopia called world. I need it damn much.I went to therapy today. She's a bi+ch. I'm doing so much, she said im holding to anxiety. I counsiously put so much efforts, go to her, pay, write journal, do homeworks, take my pills, don't drink, don't do drugs. But she blamed me. Then wanted me to leave her when she desided the time is out and basically kicked me out. I want to scream. It's uncounscious struggle. I wake up at 2am every damn night. I have nightmares. How can my nightmares be my fault?! How can forgetting stuff and brain damage be my fault? She said it's all in my head. But the moment i see my parents all the journals and exercises go away. I'm so frustrated. And yet im a good person. I try so hard. But Who cares?

[coolkitty1934]

well everyone on here cares maybe try changing to a different therapist

[Blueruth]

she isn’t saying it is your fault. Everyone single one of us even mentally stable people hang onto “habits “ that don’t serve them. They are so ingrained we can’t see them until someone points them out to us. She gave you a kindness. You do have some power all by yourself to change your outlook. I’ve been telling you that for awhile. Let her words sit for awhile.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Blueruth]

Your advice is crucial for fundamental psychological growth. Until the person can detach themselves from the trauma that was imposed upon them unwillingly at a young age, in this case it seems like their parents, there will ONLY be recurring cycles of the same detrimental habits that we, unfortunately, cling to with all our might. Fear is the great Un-motivator and will wreak the same havoc on the individuals life. They need to break away from the conditioning and move in a psychological direction that motivates them personally. Blaming anything else around them will justify their victimhood and keep them suffering even though they WANT something different. I know...I've done that for 47+ years until this April when I FINALLY broke away from my past. It's HARD INNER WORK...but it can be achieved.

[Cjmac1960]

peace

[Stippler]

You are a good person, no matter how others treat you. Never forget that. Sending positive energy to you. 🙏🙏🙏

[emmi331]

It's all in your head, is it? Well, OF COURSE it's in your head - that's why you're sitting there in front of her! It seems you might need a new therapist, and it may take some time to find one. But if she truly enrages you, it may be better to stop seeing her and save your money. Just sayin'. 🤔

[Greyhoundmommy]

Get a new therapist.

[Blueruth]

good grief…I swear the throwaway society has reached HU. if I recall right you struggle with even finding a therapist who isn’t tied to religion. This therapist quite honestly sounds…honest. Please don’t give up on her just yet.