Trying so hard.

[Oshunlvr]

My anxiety has been so high that I quit my job. Big mistake, I just wasn't thinking clearly. I decided to try Journaling again last night and came up with a plan. I just need advice on how to stick to it. I often freak out if my personal plans go awry.

[Agora1]

As for myself Oshunlvr, I always have a Plan B. Things don't always go the

way we plan. xx

[Oshunlvr in reply to Agora1]

Thank you! That may help.

[FauxxTrot]

I quit my job with the best pay, benefits, prestige I have ever had because I needed medication to control the anxiety it gave me. A job is just a job and there are much more important things like your mental health. There will ALWAYS be another one. Following your passion is likely the best choice and if it doesn't pan out build your portfolio with this time so you have something to be proud of. Works double for interviews down the road. Get a easy side gig to reduce the pressure to perform for your writing. Even better if it's a little boring to encourage you to do your writing. Have you tried transcription work?As for me, I got an even better job now 😉

[Oshunlvr in reply to FauxxTrot]

Thank you, I hope you're right!

[designguy]

As you are finding out, until we are able to heal our anxiety/panic it will follow you no matter if you are employed or not. Minimizing stress helps but it doesn't solve the real issues. Here is my answer to a similar post about panic/anxiety and it may be helpful for you:

What you are describing are the typical sensations of a panic attack which is caused by the surge of adrenalin in your body and prompted by your anxious thoughts that happen so fast you are most likely not even aware of them. Panic and anxiety can be caused by repressed emotions/trauma from your past and fears about your present or the future. They can also be caused or contributed to physically by your hormones, thyroid, adrenals, caffeine and poor diet.

Learning what they really are, why and how you have them and how to constructively deal with them is the key to healing them. You may even find medication helpful at least temporarily. What helped me was learning that anxiety/panic can't harm you and that it is a paradox, the more we resist it and struggle with it the more it persists so the solution is to surrender to the panicky sensations and don't believe the anxious thoughts and let the adrenalin flow through our body and dissipate. I found it relatively easy to get over the panic attacks but it took longer to resolve my anxiety. Anxiety is our bodies built in defense system that is basically malfunctioning now that you are an adult and no longer need protecting and you need to desensitize yourself to it.

I recommend the DARE Anxiety book and youtube videos for how to deal with panic/anxiety and the youtube videos of Dr. Claire Weekes and the book At Last a Life and Beyond by Paul David.