So tired trying.

[Sad-mom]

I'm so tired going to the psychologist and all he keeps doing is changing my meds. I want to be the way I use to be, I don't see any chance of that happening. Yes most of it is my fault. I barely leave the house all my friends got tired of me so the only friends I got are my 3 kids. Which they don't help at all cause each one hates the other one. They all moved away from me and they can't wait to call me and tell me how bad the other ones are treating me but they don't life a finger to help me. I just feel so lonely. Sometimes I feel like going away and starting fresh, But that will never happen. cause this dark cloud just keeps falling me.

[Agora1]

Hi Sad-mom, I see things have not changed for you and I'm sorry but am not surprised.

Once adult children pull away, it's hard for you to get the support and love that you

deserve. Having been Agoraphobic myself, I know what it's like to have had friends disappear because they could not understand the illness. Family as well,

may not understand and you find yourself all alone. I'm sure there are many of us

on this forum who have gone or are going through the same thing.

You say the only friends you've got are your 3 children. Not to be harsh, but are they

even close to being a friend? It sounds like they have turned their back on you which

is sad but seems to be the product of many young adults now a days.

What if you went away and started fresh? Don't you feel you deserve that right?

We only go around once in life and what is life if we are just existing from day to day.

Seeing a psychologist and going from one medication to another isn't the answer.

The real problem hasn't been addressed. There is no miracle or magic pill that can

erase the deep emotional and physical hurt you feel.

None of this is your fault. Our mental illness happens when we lose sight of happiness

in our lives. We must learn to love ourselves and take care of ourselves or we have

nothing. It sounds like right now you are their ATM machine and nothing more.

Sad-mom, I wish I could hug you and take away your pain. Please continue keeping

this virtual family close. This is a time when you need those who truly care and under-

stand. Sending you love xx

[Hidden]

Going away for awhile might be the best thing for you, remember its just for awhile you can always return to your life known anytime. But I think you need to take some time away , think of it as a vacation...the difference between me and you is that my kids are still young, 8,6 and 2..so I would say you have the upper hand right now to go live a little and it might just bring light back into you..for me unfortunately i have to deal with anxiety and still manage to raise my kids until they are all grown...and my wife works double shifts so it's very stressful for me with the lack of support besides my mom coming over once in awhile. But theres no way for me to get away.. ..take it , embrace it and return to your family with love

[Hidden]

Oh and dont forget pray....🙏🙏

[Crystal999]

There is hope. I am glad you're seeing someone for this, sometimes it just takes years to get the medication adjusted for yourself. Stay with it girl you got it

[Dolphin14]

It's so true on the meds. I've been dealing with Med changes for years.

We do have to try and make a life for ourselves. There are new friends to be made if you get out there and participate. The first steps are the hardest.

If you can make it to your md appointments you can give something something social a try

We have no choice but to pick ourselves up and attempt to make a new life for ourselves.

I hope you find a way to renew your life.

[Casper22337281919]

If you want to talk let me know