a reminder

[melbrown]

I'm struggling at the moment... dealing with my childhood trauma- my body somehow remembering more, my mind trying to figure it out & at the same time not wanting to, struggling to keep me safe... the many sad, difficult times this year. Work has also gotten tensed ... the boss (who is also my brother ) has been on vacation for the past 2 weeks... without him there the disfunction got worse. Yesterday a coworker went off on me... short story he thinks he knows better then everyone else, has no filter & some people have noticed he smells of pot (myself included, but hadn't said anything to him). We live in CA, so it's legal, but he drives the company car- not suppose to at the job. The boss talked to him about it before going on vacation. He decided yesterday to blame me, as well as other things. I told him we were not having this discussion & to walk away... which he said no. No one stepped in (including my direct boss). He eventually left... I texted my husband to pick me up. Then texted my brother to tell him I was leaving (he got home the night before, but was working from home). My brother called, because it's out of character for me to leave early. I briefly told him... he asked who was there- he is going to have to talk to them. And said we'd speak later. I let my direct boss knowi was leaving, she was also leaving, agreed it was a good idea. I'm a mess... don't know 2hat I plan to do. We don't need my paycheck... but work gives me a purpose & something to focus on Thank you for reading... didn't plan on writing all this. Here's a bracelet I got to remind myself.

[Dolphin14]

Hi Mel

Work life balance is never easy. Throw in job dysfunction and working on your own mental health issues and you have high risk for overload and burn out.

I went through this over the summer. I almost left my job for my peace. The things that go on in there are actually the polar opposite of the way I want to live my life now. I don't want to deal with unprofessional behavior or drama.

I did decide to stay but knowing I can leave at any time is a relief.

Maybe take some time to think about it? See how the returning boss manages this problem. If things don't change for the better maybe it is time to make a decision on leaving.

Put your mental health and healing first. You are worth it

❤️🐬

[melbrown in reply to Dolphin14]

Thanks Dolphin14. I'm nearly running on empty (been well over a year since we've took a vacation)... & like you have no time for unprofessional behavior or drama. Just want to do my job, have a chill, peaceful work environment. When you whatever effects me for able to do my job, then we have an issue. I saw my brother today, we went to a release event today... so was able to talk. He hasn't been able to talk to anyone else yet- my boss did tell him there was something, but they are going to talk about it Monday. He did ask me what I plan on doing... told him at this point wasn't sure. He gets I need to put my mental health first... he has been a huge support in my healing journey.💗🫂

[HereForTheDuration]

Huh, I experience similar thoughts trying to figure out why things happen the way they happened. As far as the co-worker, I got enough context from your post to decide that if it were me there's lots of ways to deal with your disagreeable collegue. Chief of which is to remind him that ...YOU'RE BROTHER IS THE BOSS!!!!!!!! Hope this helps.

[melbrown in reply to HereForTheDuration]

Thank you HereForTheDuration. Ya all of it hasn't been fun. My brother & I do try to keep work/family relationships separate as much we can. Like me reporting issues to my direct boss. He is aware of issues with this person, because others have told him too. Plus he has seen it too.

[Starrlight]

❤️ So sorry you went through all of that. You deserve all good things.

[melbrown in reply to Starrlight]

💗🫂💗 Snuggling kitten, Clyde & trying to relax.

[Starrlight in reply to melbrown]

Good job. Peace to you. ☮️