MY SOUL IS TIRED

[Raggedy-Ann]

I received a scary diagnosis, pleural effusion. I've freaked out, cried so hard and no one would answer the phone. I ended up calling the crisis line. I finally got ahold of my sister today. I was hoping for some kind words but when I said I looked it up on the internet she exploded about how her husband....blah blah blah.... I finally stopped her and complemented her on her lovely rant and explained in slow clear voice. I have a diagnosis. This is the problem. I looked it up because I didn't know what it was. She calmed down and we discussed questions I need to ask the doctor. I meet with him tomorrow via the phone. She apologized. I decided not to tell anyone else in my family, I am way too fragile at this moment. fast forward two days- I couldn't finish the other night. the doctor said he only had the results from one test- I 've had four. he said he hadn't received the results of the others- it has been weeks. It's his job or his assistants job to get the results prior to our appointment. I was frustrated/pissed. he was useless, kept saying inconclusive until after my echocardiogram. The hospital knows more than my doctor. I am tired....... sad, ...scared....

[dwhp]

Hi RA- sorry to hear about your diagnosis. hope you be strong and continue onward. be well!

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to dwhp]

Thank you. I wish I had more information so I could understand what to expect.

[SayNOtoPanic]

So sorry to hear this. Sending you good vibes and hope all is well soon. Try not to to over worry. Hugs.

[Jacl48]

i hope you find a better dr. You deserve it. What will an echo have to do with this? I am confused.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Jacl48]

My heart needs to be seen. It may not be strong enough. I have fluid between my lungs and chest wall making it hard for me to breathe. The number cause of pleural effusion is heart failure. Scary. I refuse to go to the worse case scenario. I am not in a hospital or on new medications. I am thankful for that. Those things might happen. As for now I am not supposed to do anything that makes it hard for me to breathe.

[Hidden]

Raggedyanne I truly pray that your soul find peace in the middle of this storm.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Hidden]

thank you... thank you

[Raggedy-Ann]

I had a pulmonary embolism from birth control too. Scary sitting in an ER with a bag of blood thinners and people watching to see if I was going to die. My Dad held my shoulder as I called the rest of my family, telling them I love them, thank you and trying to hang up was the worst. I needed to call all of them. The nurse told me I could not use my phone. I told her there's not one rule on earth that applied to me and I continued my calls.

[bethelbee]

Hope you get the answers you need for proper treatment. Wait until all results are back. Pleural effusion is treatable. Hope you feel better!!

[RMHiker]

It's so hard waiting for test results. I pray that you get good news and that everything is treatable. God bless you ❤️ 🙏

[DodgeDhanda]

Hi RA.

Let's look at it this way ur halfway to knowing exactly what is going on. When U next talk to ur quack ask him if he would be as nonchalant if it were a very close & precious member of his family or would he be moving heaven & earth to find out.

Ask for the numbers of the people who did the tests, & slip in a caveat that if it turns out to be something where every second counts. U will make sure where the only place to go for the answers & his lack of concern.

U have every right to change ur dotors too . 3 years doctors have been in hiding & now they treat patients like they're all an inconvenience!!!!! I SAY KICK HIS STETHOSCOPE BACK INTO HIS BODY !!!!

[Raggedy-Ann]

Thank you. I live in a rural area so we meet on the phone. Yes, I am tired of being treated like an inconvenience. I do Zoom with my therapist. She is pretty useless. She surfs the internet during our sessions. We also have group sessions. Last time she was doing a group meditation and I fell asleep.lol.

[Sopran]

I hope you're ok . It's very tough when you don't have anyone to talk to especially when tough times come. I hope your ok .I am here if you want to chat