Lowest point

[Phantom34]

I’ve been laying in my bed all day. Sleeping most of it away because when I sleep I can escape the hatred I have for myself. I’m 18 years old and I feel uninspired and hopeless. It’s like everything I want is crumbling in front of my. My sister who I’m very close with will be leaving for Boot Camp for the army within the next month. While I’m stuck in this endless cycle of depression. I want to leave for Boot Camp to for the US Army but was told I have to lose 20 pounds. No matter what I do or seems impossible. I can’t get out of bed and cry whenever I realize that I’m worthless. I feel so hurt, broken, and like a loser. I don’t really have anyone to talk about it with. I don’t have too many friends. I have this toxic trait where I like to push everyone away it’s self sabotage. I’m trying to get things into place but have a little before I start my job. I’m hoping to get a gym membership within the next few weeks, but am scared I’m going to lack the discipline and motivation to go. I really need some advice, please I’m at my lowest point. 

[Disneybrain]

You are NOT ALONE! In fact it’s our minds/brains that don’t feel well. Just like a diabetic needs insulin all of us need “something” to help our mind sickness. It does not make you a looser, it makes you someone who needs to find the right help. Believe it or not the World is in the palm of your hands at 18. You can do and become whatever you want with the right direction.

May you have a peaceful night in your mind. Things will be ok it just takes time.