So my husband has been ignoring me for two days now after an argument we had over his son being disrespectful to me & how I feel left out when he’s around. My husband said it was me doing it to myself & I exclude myself. I feel as if I’m always the one left out or treated differently when there together. He says I find any reason to pick on his son, which I don’t feel is the case. When I say no to his son it’s for a reason & I explain my reasons to his son. However there are times his son will do things, his dad finds out gets mad at me for being hard on the little guy & then the little boy apologizes to me & then does the same thing the following week. I’m currently dealing with the death of my grandma who was like a mom to me & im dealing with it alone. My husband won’t talk to me about it or listen me talk about it. I havnt even really grieved my grandpas death from last year. I know I’m depressed, I have anxiety, I am a healthcare worker in a pandemic. I constantly feel like I’m drowning & I want out. Idk what to do anymore.
I’m trying really hard but I just can’t have a minute to breath. I feel unwanted in my own home. I have no one to talk to. I don’t talk to my family about it because I don’t want them not to like him. But I’ve called the suicidal help line twice within 5 months because I’m at my breaking point. I won’t do it because it will cause more pain to those I love, but in the moment it feels like the most perfect thing to do, no die but harm myself
This is the worst I’ve ever felt & ive felt pretty low before. He may not be physically abusive but right now the emotional and mental abuse is so much worse than a slice with a knife b
Did u ever spoke to his family about this?how old is this Boy?
To who’s family. My husband? Or his kid? The boy is 8, so he knows what he’s doing because there are many times he will apologize but then does it again. My husbands family. Well.... they said that’s how he is. He’s not an “emotional person” he blames the fact that his mom died very young and his dad was pretty much checked out of there lives. He grew up with a step mom & she was pretty mean to them.
But his family has told me that I deserve better. One of them just recently told me when they found out what happened that I need to take a break & go to my moms because this isn’t healthy & I need a break because this will break me. Even though I feel like it already has
That is a good suggestion from you friend! Leaving for a break helps a lot! Good luck!